Had a bit of a fight with the girlfriend tonight. I told her I felt like I was raising her like a kid, because she makes irresponsible decisions that I have to protect her from. And that she was flippant about gravely important things.
I foresee problems in our future. Problems I wish we could have avoided. But I feel that they would only resurface later on down the road, with greater consequences.
But I also wonder, am I blowing these out of proportion? Are these problems that can be solved, or should I even be trying to solve them? Is learning to live with her quirkiness wrong? I think I might come to dominate the relationship if we continue, making all the important decisions and lording over her like, well, like my daughter. And I do not want that. But is it really wrong for things to become that way, or is it simply personal taste?
And then I worry that, if we separated, she might wind up with someone not so benevolent as I, and that would break my heart worse than breaking up in the first place. I feel like I should be the one who watches over her, like I have inherited this burden through our love. I do not like it, as I have said, but I worry that the alternative is worse.
Some tough days lie ahead.