I have been thinking an idea for writing. I thought that i could post it and read your views 
It is about a story where the protagonist is writing a letter to the estate agent who rented him the apartment he is living in. He is studying abroad, but the estate agent is of the same nationality. The letter at first seems trivial. However as it goes on it becomes more and more evident that there is a reason for it to exist. It is slowly revealed that the writer is very sad. Then he starts mentioning his body. It appears that he is not happy with it, but in reality he is extremely critical of it, for an unknown reason. He specifically, then, mentions that he is not of the view that he is ugly, which makes things even more complicated. Near the end he mentions that he is nervous about a "type of body" that leads to certain thoughts. He is convinced that his own body is making him think again and again of something, and that it is understood that his body is of the type that enables the pre-occupation with such thoughts.
Finally he mentions that he thinks that he is being forced to commit an act, which he does not want to, but feels drawn to it. Again his type of body is argued to be behing this, and he goes into great detail about his childhood theories that support this view.
The act seems to be all that is in his mind. Everything gets colored by it. Nothing is outside its influence. He feels inclined to commit it. Each time he views a woman in the university he cannot stop thinking of it.
He has thought of cutting his face, since he is of the opinnion that perhaps even a small change in his body will negate the persistant idea, or at least alter it in some way that it will become more bearable. However he does not have the resolution to do it, since he does not want to be scarred, ruining his looks. In the end he is always reffering to this act he feels he has to commit, and the act, in the last sentences, is revealed to be murder by decapitation. Each time he looks in the mirror he sees someone who is destined to kill. His eyes, his nose, his entire face, appear to him as allegorical, to have that specific meaning, that his existence is about that and solely that
He ponders suicide, and this is why he wrote the letter. It is not clear if he commited it, but it is highly probable. The story probably ends with a depiction of how he imagines he will be found, after he has jumped from the window, down to the street, with the letter in his overcoat's pocket.
I will be looking forward to reading what you think of this idea. Personally i find it a bit problematic, although i think that it has potential. If completed it will be the first story of my third book
It is about a story where the protagonist is writing a letter to the estate agent who rented him the apartment he is living in. He is studying abroad, but the estate agent is of the same nationality. The letter at first seems trivial. However as it goes on it becomes more and more evident that there is a reason for it to exist. It is slowly revealed that the writer is very sad. Then he starts mentioning his body. It appears that he is not happy with it, but in reality he is extremely critical of it, for an unknown reason. He specifically, then, mentions that he is not of the view that he is ugly, which makes things even more complicated. Near the end he mentions that he is nervous about a "type of body" that leads to certain thoughts. He is convinced that his own body is making him think again and again of something, and that it is understood that his body is of the type that enables the pre-occupation with such thoughts.
Finally he mentions that he thinks that he is being forced to commit an act, which he does not want to, but feels drawn to it. Again his type of body is argued to be behing this, and he goes into great detail about his childhood theories that support this view.
The act seems to be all that is in his mind. Everything gets colored by it. Nothing is outside its influence. He feels inclined to commit it. Each time he views a woman in the university he cannot stop thinking of it.
He has thought of cutting his face, since he is of the opinnion that perhaps even a small change in his body will negate the persistant idea, or at least alter it in some way that it will become more bearable. However he does not have the resolution to do it, since he does not want to be scarred, ruining his looks. In the end he is always reffering to this act he feels he has to commit, and the act, in the last sentences, is revealed to be murder by decapitation. Each time he looks in the mirror he sees someone who is destined to kill. His eyes, his nose, his entire face, appear to him as allegorical, to have that specific meaning, that his existence is about that and solely that
He ponders suicide, and this is why he wrote the letter. It is not clear if he commited it, but it is highly probable. The story probably ends with a depiction of how he imagines he will be found, after he has jumped from the window, down to the street, with the letter in his overcoat's pocket.
I will be looking forward to reading what you think of this idea. Personally i find it a bit problematic, although i think that it has potential. If completed it will be the first story of my third book
Don't discourage me.
