It was all desert. Looking around me left and right, I saw nothing but sand and flat horizon. A warm wind threw up dust which stung my eyes, then died down and caused no further discomfort. A second scanning of my surroundings let me see a single tree, no more than a sapling, lower than my hip. I decided to sit down, and was surprised to feel the coolness of the ground underneath me. Looking back again at the sapling, I saw that it had now grown to the tallest larch tree I had ever seen, its branches almost scraping the sky.
The sky above the larch and me was a bizarre colour. I couldnt explain it properly if I tried, but the closest I can describe it was as a swirling, glowing mix of blue and red, the two meeting and combining into a new, unnameable colour in places but mostly staying distinct from one another. It was impossible to tell whether it was day or night and it didnt matter. This sky was not only uncanny to the eye, but also brilliantly beautiful. My chest heaved with pure emotion as I marvelled at the splendourous dance that these hues were enacting over me. The joy I felt was greater than any Id experienced before sheer elation at simply bearing witness to this miraculous sight. I felt the scene was almost close enough to touch, and I desperately wanted to. I didnt, however, for I was fearful even terrified, for some reason that if I did, the colours would wash themselves into nothing, like the waters of a river flowing away, never again to be seen. Even worse, I thought, was the possibility that my interference with what I was seeing would reduce it to something ordinary. It was the horror of horrors that suddenly this beauty could mutate into an agonizingly common view of clouds and sun. Still
the curiosity and more importantly the plain desire for me to feel this sky were pulling at me.
I pondered this and watched, for what seemed like an eternity. The colours continued to flit and swirl around each other, occasionally intertwining and mixing with a wondrous flash of light and then living in twin for an all-too-brief second before disengaging and returning to their separateness. After a time, the longing became too great. I decided finally that I would indeed touch this morphing airscape
because I wanted to. I somehow knew with absolute clarity that contact with this extraordinary event would provide me with absolute dominion over all that I could see and all that was here and I could not see. Ultimate knowledge, power, and security would be my rewards for simply standing and extending my hand.
And it was at this moment when I tried to stand that I realized I couldnt. I looked down in astonishment to see that the sand had somehow transformed my legs to stone! I grunted and strained, but was simply not able to move them. I screamed and panted, grasping frantically upward with both hands, to no avail. Fury boiled in my stomach and rushed into my head and arms, but went no lower than my waist. I began to smash my fists into my legs and felt my hands break after several blows. This was not working. Without even having to look up, I could sense that my wonderful sky and its colours were moving away, never to be seen again.
I stared intensely at my legs, willing them to move, to free me. I was resolute that whatever trick had been played upon me would not reduce me to the humiliation of staying here for eternity. With sublime concentration I never knew I had within me, I closed my eyes and laboured to slowly, agonizingly slowly, uncross my right leg. I then did the same, slightly quicker, with my left. Before I could blink, I was walking, taking steps with my stone-legs, steps that quaked like thunder, toward the tree, which had now become the tallest mountain in the world. This mountain was covered with trees as far up as I could see. The height was so great it even ascended into the sky itself which, to my immeasurable relief, was still dancing its gorgeous dance with infinite beauty. From this mountain, I thought, no doubt I could touch that burning blue-red.
In an instant, I was at the top of this mountain. The stone-legs were now as light as down-feathers, and I had the feeling that I was floating. I was proud at having gotten all the way to the precipice. This was a mountain so high that I now realized that the sky was no longer above me, but below. Indeed, it no longer looked as if it were the sky at all, but a great lake or sea of those same wonderful shades. They were now also shades of this mountain. I was atop a mass so great it cast its shadow over the entire world below.
I looked up, and saw that I was underneath nothing but blackness, as if someone had whisked away the stars from a cloudless midnight. From this void I saw a dot walking towards me. It grew larger in my eye as it made its way nearer, its four hooves treading on something less than thin air. It was the same bull that had nearly killed me when I was a child, and upon its back it carried my old blanket. I faced the beast without any fear, just as I had when I was eight and it had taught me so valuable a lesson about respecting unpredictable animals. He stopped its march and stood a few paces away, staring at me blankly. No hint of malice was on his face. His look was one of simplicity and peace. And my blanket was being offered to me as a gift.
I took a step toward my new friend, and as I did so my air-light legs immediately turned back to unmovable granite. I fell forward and began hurtling toward the ground. The red-and-blue sky was actually parting way to let me fall. I could see the desert had now all turned to rock, as it had done to my legs before. As I plummeted with astounding speed, I saw a larch sapling right next to where I was about to make impact.
***
I awoke with a start. I bolted upright from lying on my back, and then I was immediately levelled by that same piercing pain which had felled me before. I gritted my teeth and grimaced, instinctively reaching for my stomach and that damned spear-point. However, much to my surprise, that was not what I felt. Instead, my hand gripped a thin, worn blanket of what felt like bear-skin and fur. Looking underneath, I saw that the spear was gone, leaving only a gaping hole, out of which was oozing only a trace amount of blood and mucus. I should feel like death itself, I thought. Yet, strangely, I felt full of energy and vigour. The pain emanating from my stomach was still considerable, but definitely less than before I was
wherever I was. Looking straight up, I saw the treated, weathered leather of a tent-roof.
Was it possible all Id experienced had simply been an intensely real dream? In spite of my surprising physical well-being, I was having a tough time getting my bearings and figuring out what had really happened and what hadnt. Whose tent was I in? It certainly wasnt mine. I could tell from my back that it was rather larger than any Id slept in; yes, at least twice the size. And somehow, the smell of the air, the quality of the light, the feel of the ground all felt
just different.
Standing, I made my way, cautiously, to the tent-flap and, just as I was about to lift it, someone did from the outside. I stared into this persons face for a second before I realized
it was my sister! Her blonde hair was frazzled and her eyes sunken as if shed not slept in days, but it was her! She broke out into the biggest smile Id ever seen and hugged me with a grip as powerful as a bear. VASYA! she cried, her voice cracking on the second syllable and she started to weep. Were alive and theyre all gone; you and me are the only ones left
She trailed off and kept sobbing. And only then I realized the true extent of what we had lost. I fought back tears as well, and failed. And as I wept too, I saw through the tears dozens of black-haired people standing and watching us, compassion on their faces.
My sister soon explained to me that these were the people who had saved our lives after we had been attacked, who had used their powers of healing to treat my wound and who had found her in the wilderness before the rampaging hordes who had destroyed our tribe and family did. She had snuck out before first light to get surprises of rare garlands and roots she had seen, for my mother to use for cooking. My sister did not return until the raiders had left. She told me how she wished she was there when the attack had happened so she could die with her kind after having killed as many of the marauders as she could. Her story made me hurt
and so did the wound in my stomach, which I evidenced with a grimace on my face as a pang of pain returned.
I wont talk any more tonight, Vasya. Youre still very injured, and you need to rest. The leader of these people is a very compassionate man. He will accept us into his tribe, Im sure of it. Now rest. She kissed me on the forehead. I did indeed feel that my vitality had been sapped by the simple acts of walking and talking to my sister. I was ready for a sleep. And I had security in the knowledge that it would not be my last.
***
I was back in the desert, starting right where I had before. The sky was once again doing its thing. This time, however, there was no beauty in the movements, shapes, or colours I saw. No universal knowledge was going to come to me from touching what I now realized was nothing more than a bunch of hues meaninglessly floating around. I reached up with one massive hand and grabbed onto it, pulled it down, and ripped it in half. The colours sprung forth from within it, as water would if one was to rip open a goat-stomach water-bag. Some of the colours flew away into the blackness; others made their way over to the sapling I was supposed to plummet into, and together they turned the landscape into pleasant and prosperous meadow. I climbed the tall mountain no sign of legs of stone now and reached the top to find that the bull was still there as well. He raged as I climbed upon him and gripped his horns, breaking off half of each and throwing them down to the earth below. They stuck into the ground and turned into tents, roads, and people.
I picked up from under me my old blanket my mother had made, and flung it up into the air, where it stretched out over the whole landscape and became a brilliant and calm bluish-purple. Taking one long look at it, I gently kicked the bull in its flanks and rode upon it down the hill toward my future.
I slept soundly that night.