EDIT: I have edited this as it was out of character for me, and did not convey my message well.
The best way to describe the way I feel would be to compare my self to others. I think Chieftess and Donozan Zoi, have best described how I fell.
In Chieftess' thread where she talked about leaving the Demogame, she talks about not feeling appreciated. I now feel the same type of lack of appreciation as she did. I worked very hard in this position, and I think only a handful of people have noticed, and those are the people who are here on a daily basis. Chieftess said she felt as if no one valued her work, and this is how I feel. It is like when you shoot hoops with your friends, if someone makes a basket, they say respect, and you pass the ball back. I feel that I should have gotten a bit of respect for a job I felt was well done. I have mixed feelings of anger and sadness, but mostly confusion as to what I did wrong. What did I do to not to receive the ball for that second shot?
Donozan Zoi also summed up my feelings of sadness in the Term 5 Military Leader Thread. During Term 4, he was deputy and performed quite admirably in Falcon's absence, with GREAT and DETAILED military plannig. When I work, I always try and mimic his detail. He wrote this:
"How depressing.....I guess my hard work and attention to detail didn't pay off after all. "
Those are exactly my sentiments. I felt as though all my work, was not noticed.
Finally, I would like to apologize for my earlier rant that was quite out of character. I hope you can sympathize with me somewhat, and understand, why I was angry, and why I wanted to know what I had done wrong. I am sorry, and I assure you it won't happen again.