JohnRM
Don't make me destroy you
You know, if there is one thing that I have learned throughout my life, it is that most people make things out to be far more crucial and important than they ever truly are. Take politics, for instance. A group of people will argue two or more ends of an issue until they are blue in the face, but never actually deal with the issue personally.
We fight tooth and nail over things that have little or no impact on us, personally, rather than spending energy on issues that truly deserve our attention, nevermind the fact that at the end of the debate, you are stuck in the same lousy position you were in to begin with. About the only difference may be that you've pissed off quite a few people. We value so much and get so worked up over things that have almost no meaning or relavence to us.
I was driving the other day, looking for an address on a particular street. I slowed down and pulled over when I found it, and the guy behind me had to let me know how angry he was that I did so. He honked his horn and was in an uproar about it, nevermind the fact that this maniac was doing 60 mph in a 35 mph zone. Was it worth it, buddy?
Meanwhile, we stand on the precipice, in one way or another, with our futures in our very hands and we can barely manage to notice, if we do at all. Someone will be near losing a family member, because they don't talk and it is getting toward the end of that person's life and they are going to die soon. They will be gone forever, and we just don't get it.
You have some prize-winner who smokes a pack a day, telling his or herself that they will quit. Someday. Give me a break. These same people are also in the restaurants complaining about a single hair in their pasta, while they stick a minature exhaust pipe into their mouth and inhale God knows what. I don't know what is more sad, the fact that I, myself, am guilty of these kinds of things or that I know that I will do it again.
You get to a point in your life where things are going great and you're working on getting the things that you want, you see the world in particular way and then something happens. You realize what is really important to you and that you are losing it. Maybe its your health. Could be a companion. I don't know. Its not always the same thing.
Life is all about finding something to do with yourself. I think that for most of us, there are a standard set of things that make us happy and enjoy our lives. I thought that I was well on my way to having those things. I thought I knew what I had and how it was. I think I just got what some people call a 'reality check'.
It happens. For some, more than others. The one thing that I fear from it all is that one day it will be too much and I will become what despised as a youth. I will become a cynic. It takes more and more to fight it off each time.
I know a lot of you won't read the whole thing. None of you will have any idea what this is all about. I don't care. It was something that I had to say and for just once, not to myself. At least I know that some of you, out there, have gone through the same thing and in a rare instance, might sympathize. At least I can pretend.
We fight tooth and nail over things that have little or no impact on us, personally, rather than spending energy on issues that truly deserve our attention, nevermind the fact that at the end of the debate, you are stuck in the same lousy position you were in to begin with. About the only difference may be that you've pissed off quite a few people. We value so much and get so worked up over things that have almost no meaning or relavence to us.
I was driving the other day, looking for an address on a particular street. I slowed down and pulled over when I found it, and the guy behind me had to let me know how angry he was that I did so. He honked his horn and was in an uproar about it, nevermind the fact that this maniac was doing 60 mph in a 35 mph zone. Was it worth it, buddy?
Meanwhile, we stand on the precipice, in one way or another, with our futures in our very hands and we can barely manage to notice, if we do at all. Someone will be near losing a family member, because they don't talk and it is getting toward the end of that person's life and they are going to die soon. They will be gone forever, and we just don't get it.
You have some prize-winner who smokes a pack a day, telling his or herself that they will quit. Someday. Give me a break. These same people are also in the restaurants complaining about a single hair in their pasta, while they stick a minature exhaust pipe into their mouth and inhale God knows what. I don't know what is more sad, the fact that I, myself, am guilty of these kinds of things or that I know that I will do it again.
You get to a point in your life where things are going great and you're working on getting the things that you want, you see the world in particular way and then something happens. You realize what is really important to you and that you are losing it. Maybe its your health. Could be a companion. I don't know. Its not always the same thing.
Life is all about finding something to do with yourself. I think that for most of us, there are a standard set of things that make us happy and enjoy our lives. I thought that I was well on my way to having those things. I thought I knew what I had and how it was. I think I just got what some people call a 'reality check'.
It happens. For some, more than others. The one thing that I fear from it all is that one day it will be too much and I will become what despised as a youth. I will become a cynic. It takes more and more to fight it off each time.
I know a lot of you won't read the whole thing. None of you will have any idea what this is all about. I don't care. It was something that I had to say and for just once, not to myself. At least I know that some of you, out there, have gone through the same thing and in a rare instance, might sympathize. At least I can pretend.
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