Synobun
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My goals:
- Go somewhere once a month. I don't mean traveling long distance to other cities and countries (well, I do want to do that, but it's unrealistic now), but somewhere in Vancouver I haven't yet gone before. That's pretty simple since I've gone nowhere in this city in a decade. But I need to spend more time outside my bubble, and now I am theoretically physically capable enough to manage that for a couple hours. I survived the constant traveling for healthcare from October to December, so I'd like to make an effort to go somewhere once a month, even if it's just to get there and then sit quietly for a half-hour before heading back.
- Watch more movies alone. Over the past couple years, most of my movie-watching has transitioned to being a friend activity. But this also means that I'm rarely watching a movie I actually want to see, since I'd rather ensure the other person/people are getting what they want. As a result, my personal watchlist is infinitely expanding. I'd like to knock that down a little this year. Or, hell, even if it's just rewatching movies, I'd like to do it more by myself. This is kind of a weird goal, since it inevitably boils down to socializing less, but still.
- Get my work back in order enough so I can afford medication again. Vague goal, but with a tangible target. Since my work has completely collapsed, meds were one of the first things to get rationed and then subsequently cut. It's been miserable. I need to start taking them again if I want any hope of continuing my physical rehab and not regressing.
- Continue vocal training. Repairing the damage wrought by being mute in my teens for a year and then only speaking IRL at doctors' appointments for over half a decade has been slow, and a lot of the time it feels like I'm making no progress. So this is a general goal of continuing work on fixing my voice. My enunciation and vocal control are terrible still, but there are moments where I sound okay and can generally navigate speech alright. Since I do work with my voice now, it's more important, but even just socially... I'd like to be able to participate without stumbling and failing.
That's probably a good enough starting point. There are other things I want to achieve/do, but the likelihood of succeeding is incredibly low. Stating them publicly might as well just be a cudgel. But if the third goal gets met, it does open those other things up. So I might return later in the year to add to my list.
- Go somewhere once a month. I don't mean traveling long distance to other cities and countries (well, I do want to do that, but it's unrealistic now), but somewhere in Vancouver I haven't yet gone before. That's pretty simple since I've gone nowhere in this city in a decade. But I need to spend more time outside my bubble, and now I am theoretically physically capable enough to manage that for a couple hours. I survived the constant traveling for healthcare from October to December, so I'd like to make an effort to go somewhere once a month, even if it's just to get there and then sit quietly for a half-hour before heading back.
- Watch more movies alone. Over the past couple years, most of my movie-watching has transitioned to being a friend activity. But this also means that I'm rarely watching a movie I actually want to see, since I'd rather ensure the other person/people are getting what they want. As a result, my personal watchlist is infinitely expanding. I'd like to knock that down a little this year. Or, hell, even if it's just rewatching movies, I'd like to do it more by myself. This is kind of a weird goal, since it inevitably boils down to socializing less, but still.
- Get my work back in order enough so I can afford medication again. Vague goal, but with a tangible target. Since my work has completely collapsed, meds were one of the first things to get rationed and then subsequently cut. It's been miserable. I need to start taking them again if I want any hope of continuing my physical rehab and not regressing.
- Continue vocal training. Repairing the damage wrought by being mute in my teens for a year and then only speaking IRL at doctors' appointments for over half a decade has been slow, and a lot of the time it feels like I'm making no progress. So this is a general goal of continuing work on fixing my voice. My enunciation and vocal control are terrible still, but there are moments where I sound okay and can generally navigate speech alright. Since I do work with my voice now, it's more important, but even just socially... I'd like to be able to participate without stumbling and failing.
That's probably a good enough starting point. There are other things I want to achieve/do, but the likelihood of succeeding is incredibly low. Stating them publicly might as well just be a cudgel. But if the third goal gets met, it does open those other things up. So I might return later in the year to add to my list.
The recovery for bottom surgery is pretty crazy, from what I've heard.
I hope you can get some kind of calm environment to recover in for a while. I can't imagine trying to keep up with work and responsibilities through all that.
