Sir Eric said:
Without trying to get too personal, how are you able to find yourself spiritually without it being doctrinal?
My own experiences lead my to believe that the 2 are connected.
It's fine to ask.
I'm not done searching, maybe I will never be done, since there is always more to discover. It's come from the experiences that I've been able to pack into twenty years of life. A lot of it had to do with combat of all kinds, unfortunately. It gave me a lot of time to think, to observe, to form my own opinions and feelings about the world around me.
I do believe...but I can't say it's following doctrine because I will disagree with some of the stances of many churches. Perhaps I am a wayward soul to some, but I find it more personal and more spiritual than trying to follow the letter of the doctrine for the sake of it.
Maybe it's just me substituting my own doctrines on myself, I suppose a case can be made for that. I try to see the compassion that Jesus brought so long ago and I see a lot in common with other faiths, as far as the most standard, basic rules.
Someone can tell me how wrong I am for sure or try to debate with me about God not being there. I want none of that. I'm having a very hard time seeing how there couldn't be God that started all this, going back as far as I can possibly wrap my mind around...it has to be the work of God. And with that, I think its my responsibility, and everyone else's as well, to keep that in as best shape as possible.
Because I'd rather people not have my experiences or the worse ones that are out there.