onlysky1
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I don’t know whether I should write it down or not, but after some hesitation I decided to write it down.
I may have some sort of “civ game addiction” for quite a long time: I first started playing the civ series was when I was 15 years old, at that time it was Civ 3 I was playing. I knew I love the game at first sight, but at that time I was a pupil enrolled in a very rigid boarding school and there were lots of academic pressure on me, in the school, teachers told us playing computer games is evil, because when a kid is playing the computer game, he will not have the time and the mood to finish homework and study. Kids who playing computer games are losers in schools and losers in life, they play computer games to escape the reality in which they are the losers.
Because of this, I always have some sort of inner tension towards the game, I remember one day when I played the game for a whole afternoon and then feel very guilty and regretful, I had to delate the Civ 3 game from my computer and swear not to play it ever again. But weeks later I found myself play that game crazily again…
This compulsive behavior of “indulgence and then delate the game, and then reinstall the game ” repeat itself over and over again later in my life. Now I ‘m in my mid-twenty, but I still found myself in this swirl,
The only difference is in the past pressure in school makes playing CIV a dilemma, now, it is pressure from work place and adult life that makes playing CIV a dilemma.
I wonder in this forum there must be someone there who has experience something similar. I want to ask: Is there a way out?
I may have some sort of “civ game addiction” for quite a long time: I first started playing the civ series was when I was 15 years old, at that time it was Civ 3 I was playing. I knew I love the game at first sight, but at that time I was a pupil enrolled in a very rigid boarding school and there were lots of academic pressure on me, in the school, teachers told us playing computer games is evil, because when a kid is playing the computer game, he will not have the time and the mood to finish homework and study. Kids who playing computer games are losers in schools and losers in life, they play computer games to escape the reality in which they are the losers.
Because of this, I always have some sort of inner tension towards the game, I remember one day when I played the game for a whole afternoon and then feel very guilty and regretful, I had to delate the Civ 3 game from my computer and swear not to play it ever again. But weeks later I found myself play that game crazily again…
This compulsive behavior of “indulgence and then delate the game, and then reinstall the game ” repeat itself over and over again later in my life. Now I ‘m in my mid-twenty, but I still found myself in this swirl,
The only difference is in the past pressure in school makes playing CIV a dilemma, now, it is pressure from work place and adult life that makes playing CIV a dilemma.
I wonder in this forum there must be someone there who has experience something similar. I want to ask: Is there a way out?
