Just a thread to really just get some thoughts out really I suppose, almsot liek a blog to some extent, but really just a little thing to be ableto just get out to the wrold some stuff I'm been feeling and thinking latelly.
First off, well, been feeling a bit down latelly, not realyl anyhting to much to be sad about, btu for some odd reason, when ever i get down liek this, whic while its not often, is not, by the same token, necissarilly uncommon either, I get this image in my mind, which, for some odd and unknown reason, i just connect with the mid 90s for some odd reason... the image itself is well, first off it is all black and white- no other colours involved, the sky is over cat, and the land barren, somtimes there is a fence, the clouds of the sky move fast, quite overcast, but not threatinign to rain, not quite at least as it is... not really sure why i bring this up really, I mean, i dont even know why I connect it, being kinda down/depressed withthe mid 90, my early childhood, which by all accounts was pretty good together (more so, if you have ever heard Nirvanas rendition of "Man who sold the world" that also get thrown in, but as a divergent thought, not connected with the picture)
its just got me kinda wondering really, I mean its a very vivid picture that my minds eye paints for me, and I doubt words could give it justice for how vived, or how conencted that picture is with just well, depression for me, and how its connected ot the 90s... I know, sounds crazy, but it just "feels right" for it to be connected with that time, when i think back to the mid 90s in particuler (to young to realyl remember the early 90's, I'm only 17 after all...) the image just pops up as a reference... anyway, I've been dyeing to say that for ages, not to anyone in particuler, so i just decided to post it...
It make me wonder what it means though, it makes me wonder what alot of things mean... I odnt know about other people, but I'm a very visual type person, i tend to associate vast groupgings of thoughts and such with a particuler image, many times I donw know why... heres a pecie of trivia for you- basically my entire teenage life has been shaped by the two imagined image, one of looking up, and seeing celar blur shyies by great dorcand Ionic coloums- nothing else, just that narrow veiw ahs been a driving impulse in my life, it hasnt shaped my life to that being the reason I'm what religion I am, but its a thought that has comforted me, and lifeted my spirtis eveytime I have thought of it..
the other image is basically of me, in more or less a rather shoddy tunic of graecian origin leaning against a great tree, in the mids tof a great feild hills rolloing, the tree situates on a large hill itself, the kind of land used for grazing sheep perhaps, the grass is very green, the healthyies one can imagine, is bright green filling thev eiw befor reachinf verdent forrests in the distance, and righ blue shys, dotted with great white fluffy clouds... another image that has comfoted me since I firt dreamed it up, around when i was 13 if I remember correctlly...
anyway... i guess I dont really have a point, i probabley shouldnt evenpost this, at leas tnot here where it is sure ot be picked apart and ridiculed by avariety of people, be they the affulent posters, or the curious lurker, who will never share thier thoughts on the matter... but say what you wish about it, i look onward to your comment, if any about this, these images which so describe what i think and what I feel, why might these images be so vivid, so clear, so connected with feelings and times and emotions and everything...
First off, well, been feeling a bit down latelly, not realyl anyhting to much to be sad about, btu for some odd reason, when ever i get down liek this, whic while its not often, is not, by the same token, necissarilly uncommon either, I get this image in my mind, which, for some odd and unknown reason, i just connect with the mid 90s for some odd reason... the image itself is well, first off it is all black and white- no other colours involved, the sky is over cat, and the land barren, somtimes there is a fence, the clouds of the sky move fast, quite overcast, but not threatinign to rain, not quite at least as it is... not really sure why i bring this up really, I mean, i dont even know why I connect it, being kinda down/depressed withthe mid 90, my early childhood, which by all accounts was pretty good together (more so, if you have ever heard Nirvanas rendition of "Man who sold the world" that also get thrown in, but as a divergent thought, not connected with the picture)
its just got me kinda wondering really, I mean its a very vivid picture that my minds eye paints for me, and I doubt words could give it justice for how vived, or how conencted that picture is with just well, depression for me, and how its connected ot the 90s... I know, sounds crazy, but it just "feels right" for it to be connected with that time, when i think back to the mid 90s in particuler (to young to realyl remember the early 90's, I'm only 17 after all...) the image just pops up as a reference... anyway, I've been dyeing to say that for ages, not to anyone in particuler, so i just decided to post it...
It make me wonder what it means though, it makes me wonder what alot of things mean... I odnt know about other people, but I'm a very visual type person, i tend to associate vast groupgings of thoughts and such with a particuler image, many times I donw know why... heres a pecie of trivia for you- basically my entire teenage life has been shaped by the two imagined image, one of looking up, and seeing celar blur shyies by great dorcand Ionic coloums- nothing else, just that narrow veiw ahs been a driving impulse in my life, it hasnt shaped my life to that being the reason I'm what religion I am, but its a thought that has comforted me, and lifeted my spirtis eveytime I have thought of it..
the other image is basically of me, in more or less a rather shoddy tunic of graecian origin leaning against a great tree, in the mids tof a great feild hills rolloing, the tree situates on a large hill itself, the kind of land used for grazing sheep perhaps, the grass is very green, the healthyies one can imagine, is bright green filling thev eiw befor reachinf verdent forrests in the distance, and righ blue shys, dotted with great white fluffy clouds... another image that has comfoted me since I firt dreamed it up, around when i was 13 if I remember correctlly...
anyway... i guess I dont really have a point, i probabley shouldnt evenpost this, at leas tnot here where it is sure ot be picked apart and ridiculed by avariety of people, be they the affulent posters, or the curious lurker, who will never share thier thoughts on the matter... but say what you wish about it, i look onward to your comment, if any about this, these images which so describe what i think and what I feel, why might these images be so vivid, so clear, so connected with feelings and times and emotions and everything...
So I apolagize if anyone saw me arguing with Neomega about music and what "What the ****?"
