Not very self-confidence. Quite limited physical and social self-confidence. Intellectual self-confidence is a little harder to place, veers between high and low, often starting out as over-confidence and shattering into despair when it turns out that I don't know the answer to absolutely everything. About the only thing that I'm solidly confident in is the obscurity of the bands on my t-shirts, and I don't think anybody but me actually cares about that.
Mostly, it seems to be very dependent on the responses of others, to a degree which is frankly quite pathetic for somebody my age. It's a very adolescent mentality, I think, depending so heavily for your self-image on how others reflect that image back to you. Especially given that there's no real approval-seeking at work, y'know, none of the behaviour you'd associate with an actual borderine personality disorder, just a lot of slouching about feeling sorry for myself, very much a lack of emotional maturity.
(At least I've got the maturity to acknowledge it in abstract, I guess, whatever that's worth.)
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