Yeeek
Seizing The Day
I stoped to believe in God and whatnot around the age of 10. My family never been religious at least my parents never were. But i still believed in something, untill the day i watched my grandmother slowy dying from cirrhosis due to her long years of alcoholism. She was a vegetable, i'll skip you the other bits of this disease and how we found her in her apartment.
I can't explain why, i can't tell you how, i don't have the awnswers to my own questions but that day, i stoped to believe there could be an after life or a God. Keep in mind i was still very young. I started to reject any kind of theories about the existence of God(s), matters of religion ect. I grew up, i learned alot, sciences kind of proved me i was right.
But even with my strong feelings against religion, i only wish to be proved wrong. To this day, i haven't. Faith? I don't know what it means. It seems religions contains their followers like a sheep keeper would do. I still have weird feelings every time i step up in a cathedral/church. I couldn't tell why, most likely because i like architecture. Or perhaps it is something else.
I can't explain why, i can't tell you how, i don't have the awnswers to my own questions but that day, i stoped to believe there could be an after life or a God. Keep in mind i was still very young. I started to reject any kind of theories about the existence of God(s), matters of religion ect. I grew up, i learned alot, sciences kind of proved me i was right.
But even with my strong feelings against religion, i only wish to be proved wrong. To this day, i haven't. Faith? I don't know what it means. It seems religions contains their followers like a sheep keeper would do. I still have weird feelings every time i step up in a cathedral/church. I couldn't tell why, most likely because i like architecture. Or perhaps it is something else.
