onlysky1
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I don't know whether I should write this or not, after days of hesitation, I decided to write it down.
I first play Civilization game is when I was 15 years old, at that time it was CIV 3. I like the game when I first see it and I spent lots of time playing it, but at that time I was also enrolled in a very rigid boarding school, as a pupil in that boarding school I faced lots of acadamic pressure, and I only have free time of one afternoon every two weeks, therefore since that time I develop lots of inner struggle and inner tension towards gaming: on the one hand, I want to play the game more, but on the other hand, my life circumstance and acadamic pressure forced me not to play that game that much, so there is always this "to play or not to play" tension in side of me when I 'm playing the game. To make things worse, in the boarding school I was attending, the teachers there constantly teach us to believe computer games is evil because it take the time for school work and ultimately leads to failure in school. they told us people who play too much computer games are always some losers in life that trying to escape reality.
Therefore since that time I developed some "compulsive behavior" towards computer games especially CIV games: I remember one day when I played CIV 3 for a whole afternoon, in the evening I suddently realize how much time I have wasted and I feel guilty, after great hesitation I decided to delete the game from my computer, and I want to destroy the CIV 3 game CD because if I destroyed the game CD then I will have no means to install the game afterwards.
I first play Civilization game is when I was 15 years old, at that time it was CIV 3. I like the game when I first see it and I spent lots of time playing it, but at that time I was also enrolled in a very rigid boarding school, as a pupil in that boarding school I faced lots of acadamic pressure, and I only have free time of one afternoon every two weeks, therefore since that time I develop lots of inner struggle and inner tension towards gaming: on the one hand, I want to play the game more, but on the other hand, my life circumstance and acadamic pressure forced me not to play that game that much, so there is always this "to play or not to play" tension in side of me when I 'm playing the game. To make things worse, in the boarding school I was attending, the teachers there constantly teach us to believe computer games is evil because it take the time for school work and ultimately leads to failure in school. they told us people who play too much computer games are always some losers in life that trying to escape reality.
Therefore since that time I developed some "compulsive behavior" towards computer games especially CIV games: I remember one day when I played CIV 3 for a whole afternoon, in the evening I suddently realize how much time I have wasted and I feel guilty, after great hesitation I decided to delete the game from my computer, and I want to destroy the CIV 3 game CD because if I destroyed the game CD then I will have no means to install the game afterwards.