Imagine - a reach for the mere possible

[Terxpahseyton]

IMAGINE - A REACH FOR THE MERE POSSIBLE

I don't know about you, but at times I feel like my contradicting urges are ripping me apart, like all those feelings just can not find a place within little me and have no choice but to rip through my skin and make a mess.
It is a feeling of dislocation, because whatever place I am at it isn't right, so some other place got to be it. And at times it is. But soon enough, it isn't and the game begins anew until I arrive at another place of temporary piece.
And I know it is just a neverending chase. I know this holds no real satisfaction, only momentary relieve. No real value. I know in my heart that it leads nowhere.

So the question arises - where is it at? Where is this place of piece and reconciliation? Where can I truly be rather than chase ghosts?

I think there are two things a person can do. Dive into the sea of its own humanity. Or chase images of civilization. And I think the former is way more gratifying and fulfilling than the latter.
But it seems to me that the latter is imposed upon us all.

And that to me is the tragedy of modern human kind. Tragedy is just a word, easily ignored. But if truly realized, it in this instance means that millions of people just like U are grabbed and stabbed and fracked by society at this very moment. Have their free and true soul hit and picked and bend until it confirms to common paradigms of efficiency.

Am I just a dumb hippy?
I don't know.
I only know that there is so much more than we allow us to have.

 

[BvBPL]

Don't dream it, be it.

 

[Terxpahseyton]

Don't dream it, be it.

There are some things I want to reply to this. Most of all, some real and practical things, things which supposedly qualify for "be it". But I don't want to spoil this thread with my response just yet.
That said, I am curious about how you personal feel about this. Your statement lacks identity.

 

[BvBPL]

Give yourself over to absolute pleasure.

 

[Terxpahseyton]

I don't know what to do with that response.
Is this what you feel the OP is about? That would sadden me as this would make me feel utmost misunderstood.

 

[BvBPL]

The answer to your question is Transylvania. Don't bother calling ahead, castles don't have phones.

 

[Kyriakos]

IMAGINE - A REACH FOR THE MERE POSSIBLE

I don't know about you, but at times I feel like my contradicting urges are ripping me apart, like all those feelings just can not find a place within little me and have no choice but to rip through my skin and make a mess.
It is a feeling of dislocation, because whatever place I am at it isn't right, so some other place got to be it. And at times it is. But soon enough, it isn't and the game begins anew until I arrive at another place of temporary piece.
And I know it is just a neverending chase. I know this holds no real satisfaction, only momentary relieve. No real value. I know in my heart that it leads nowhere.

So the question arises - where is it at? Where is this place of piece and reconciliation? Where can I truly be rather than chase ghosts?

I think there are two things a person can do. Dive into the sea of its own humanity. Or chase images of civilization. And I think the former is way more gratifying and fulfilling than the latter.
But it seems to me that the latter is imposed upon us all.

And that to me is the tragedy of modern human kind. Tragedy is just a word, easily ignored. But if truly realized, it in this instance means that millions of people just like U are grabbed and stabbed and fracked by society at this very moment. Have their free and true soul hit and picked and bend until it confirms to common paradigms of efficiency.

Am I just a dumb hippy?
I don't know.
I only know that there is so much more than we allow us to have.

Not sure if you mean that, but it sounds a bit like a seperation between interests in your mental world, and interest in the external world.

The mental world of a person is vast. It is not just more vast than anything external, but contains any impression you have of anything external anyway. You always move in your mental world, regardless of what you do.

Personally i am very introverted, but came to accept that some degree of external interest is needed, so as to survive and also be generally a bit happy

You cannot really control much on the external world. So the main journey here is in one's imagination. Maybe you can pick up writing or some other expressive art, or philosophy.

 

[Narz]

You don't have to choose.

Enjoy what samsara has to offer but don't become immeshed in it. Remember culture & the commercial forces shaping everyone's lives don't give a damn about your welfare. Remember you aren't biologically designed for the hyperstimulating world we live it. Read good books about nueroscience, try as best you can to understand yourself, get up & move your body (yoga, strength training, etc.). People who say they love themselves or love life who don't take care of their bodies are lying to themselves. There is no mind-body duality, it is one. Seek friends & lovers (IRL, not online though you can use online to help you look). Loneliness is worse for your health than smoking cigarettes.

Be easy on yourself, it's clinically proven to be more effective than severe self-criticalness. Listen to Kelly McGonigal, she's very smart & super hot : https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=kelly mcgonigal


Link to video.

Don't expect many deep answers on CivFanatics. Fortunately I am making a brief return so you got something anyway.

Good luck.

 

[Borachio]

^ That's all nice and cozy.

But in the end, whatever it is, whether you're reaching for something or something is happening to you out of your control, "you just have to get on with it".

(As some very wise old woman once told me. Actually she told me this more than once. I'm not all that sure what it means, to be honest. But at least it's a short saying and what it lacks in depth it makes up for with brevity.)