As a child I had many friends who took big risks in doing the wrong thing, but seemed to not get more then a slap on the wrist for their actions & a great experience.
In high school & college, these people pushed things much further - including my old roommate. He & I agreed on many an issue, but he chose to react aggressively towards them, whereas I chose to be passive in my response. No matter how gravely wrong his actions were, he seemed to get further in life because he was willing to take risks & break from the norm.
My younger sister is stupid. By definition, she's someone who knows better, but doesn't care. She has done so many outrageous things that she should have died at least 4 different times in her life, yet she's never suffered more then an occasional broken bone or bruise.
Then there's me. I did everything by the book. I got good grades. I went to college. I was every parents dream child, per say. What have I gotten for it? Nothing. Well, I've become bitter, hence the username, but nothing positive has come from it. I have, on the other hand, received many a misfortune or harsh repremand from incidents that weren't anything more then a hair on the rebellious side.
The only point in my life that I was rewarded for no particular reason was my latter college years, when I was suicidally depressed. I cared about nothing and I was nothing short of weird. People would cross streets to avoid passing me or turn their noses up at me. Yet somehow, for some reason - I had the best jobs, the most friends, women hitting on me, and unbelievably good fortune.
This is why I shall turn to the dark side, per say. If it's better to be against the flow, then I may as well go the distance.
Has anyone else noticed that life seems to punish the good & reward the bad? Not by occasional chance either, but repeatedly. Yeah it's a f-ked up world, I know - first hand, but aren't we all here with the intent of being happy? Isn't it smart to do things that will reward you? :devil2:
My first turn is in music. No more sissy puppy dogs & ice cream songs. I'm listening to Rage Against the Machine, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, old Metallica, Anthrax, Slayer, Megadeth, Suicidal Tendencies, and a few choice songs with lots of color in the air (if you know what I mean). Anyone have any suggestions of heavier, faster, meaner, downright evil music? It seems to drive me, and I haven't had motivation in a looong time.