Synobun
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Ah yes, I too am a connoisseur of the blank stare.
Are you better than you were five years ago?
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Ah yes, I too am a connoisseur of the blank stare.
civvver
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My earlier reply was meant facetiously (but it's still true, and I'm bemused by the number of people who seem happy that I have a better TV now than I did 5 years ago).
Not me, same tv from 2009. It's older than my car.
My pc too I built in 2010. So sad. But they both still work fine and I don't play the newest games anyway. I'm actually half joking, we have a 60 in 4k tv upstairs but I usually watch downstairs by the kitchen cus that's where the food is! and that's the old 42 inch 1080p tv.
civvver
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Yeah every time I complain about the tv downstairs my wife says just haul your ass upstairs to watch, what is the issue? And I have no comeback because I would have to admit to her that I like snacking while watching tv and don't want to take food upstairs. To which she would say stop eating chips. So maybe I'm not actually better after 5 years lol.
I've been trying to figure out a way to broach the subject of upgrading TVs to a 65" 4K model but since our current model is a 60" plasma 1080 that works just fine, it's not that easy. I wish they came with a disable button on the back so I could claim that it was broken. My wife is a bit too smart for me to disconnect something and claim oh well.
Lexicus
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New angle on it: I haven't changed, but the world's gone to crap, so I've become relatively but not absolutely better.
warpus
Sommerswerd asked me to change this
It's basically the exact same game with all the art and language changed to make it all trek-like. So roads are starships, settlements are outposts, etc. The only difference is an addition to the game in the form of character cards that perform certain actions.
So anyway, if you are ever trying to decide between getting the original Catan and the Star Trek one.. it's basically the same game. The one difference I guess is that there's expansions for the original that would not work with the star trek version, because all the terminology and art direction is different, etc. It's a fun game, I highly recommend it! Unless you're playing with somebody who never wants to trade, which can make it frustrating
There is a distinct lack of Trekkers around here, and I'm sure the game is probably very boring if someone were to try to play it alone.
My favorite board games include the Mayfair rail games (ie. Empire Builder, Eurorails, Iron Dragon, etc.) and the original, pre-computer Civilization board game. I once took down my boyfriend's civilization in the last turn through a well-played Civil Disorder card slipped in with the other trade cards. If looks could kill, I'd have been a puddle of goo on the floor, while our mutual opponent looked on with a big grin on his face ("Beautiful! Just beautiful!"
).
dusters
Emperor
5 years ago I was in a really stable place. Studying to become a teacher, but I wasn't aware that the goverment will cut money for my university programme, so I will have to leave it.
2014 was my worst year with a prolonged manic episode during which I sold many things just to be more social and socialise. I had no income then.
2015 I started giving private lessons in English, Math and Physics and for the first time I had my own money which was bigger than pocket money.
2016 I started Hormone therapy which I was trying to start for like 10 years. Since I had my own money I could buy hormones despite my parents being against it.
Late 2016 I met my as of now girlfriend and we have gotten closer and more intertwined over those months till now. Can't wait to start living together with her.
2017 I took a year off and got a back trauma at a physician. Been ill ever since and having heightened temperature. They say it is due to nervous system breakdown.
2018 I stll had no idea how to get back my body and mental capabilites back to normal state. Found a new psychiatrist. Some neurologists too. They say it may take seveal months to fix me or ar least stabilize the situation.
So it has been rough. Maybe not the worst 5 years since I wasn't depressed during this time much, but it was hard to write anything in this thread 'cause staying alive and being able to work/study is the basic of the basics and I haven't been able to do it since mid 2013.
Thanks to others who posted truthful answers. That encouraged me.
2014 was my worst year with a prolonged manic episode during which I sold many things just to be more social and socialise. I had no income then.
2015 I started giving private lessons in English, Math and Physics and for the first time I had my own money which was bigger than pocket money.
2016 I started Hormone therapy which I was trying to start for like 10 years. Since I had my own money I could buy hormones despite my parents being against it.
Late 2016 I met my as of now girlfriend and we have gotten closer and more intertwined over those months till now. Can't wait to start living together with her.
2017 I took a year off and got a back trauma at a physician. Been ill ever since and having heightened temperature. They say it is due to nervous system breakdown.
2018 I stll had no idea how to get back my body and mental capabilites back to normal state. Found a new psychiatrist. Some neurologists too. They say it may take seveal months to fix me or ar least stabilize the situation.
So it has been rough. Maybe not the worst 5 years since I wasn't depressed during this time much, but it was hard to write anything in this thread 'cause staying alive and being able to work/study is the basic of the basics and I haven't been able to do it since mid 2013.
Thanks to others who posted truthful answers. That encouraged me.
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Narz
keeping it real
That's the spirit!
onejayhawk
Afflicted with reason
I do not have better tV than five years ago. We cut the cable about then. I have more free time but fewer free resources. I have a regular bridge partner and can play with some regularity. My wife and I go camping less. I still like to cook, grow organic tomatoes and laugh at people who think they know what's what.
It's different, but it's neither better nor worse. Life is moments not epochs.
J
It's different, but it's neither better nor worse. Life is moments not epochs.
J
Angst
Rambling and inconsistent
Emotionally: Five years ago I had severe problems with keeping myself straight, being constantly depressed.
Physically: I've gone from underweight to overweight.
Mentally: Since then I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia, so superficially, it's gone down, but in reality, I was already schizophrenic pre-diagnosis so it's more had to do with getting the tools to fix my mind, even though it's gone severely downhill.
Career: I'm at an internship at a publisher which is beyond what I expected to happen. In addition, I've published a book and gotten a lot of artistic success, and it's still on its way up. I'm so happy.
Relationship: My relationship with my gf was arse at first due to bad communication and mutual immaturity, but we've really grown older and closer together, being more able to deal with difficulties now.
All in all: I haven't moved much, and mostly back, but my career really makes sure I have a stable core to sustain myself emotionally by. As is, I'm actually very happy, but it's been tough, and I haven't even properly dealt with most of my issues; atm they're mostly suspended due to me only being able to spend energy on working. I simply don't have the time or energy to be sad or sick.
Physically: I've gone from underweight to overweight.
Mentally: Since then I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia, so superficially, it's gone down, but in reality, I was already schizophrenic pre-diagnosis so it's more had to do with getting the tools to fix my mind, even though it's gone severely downhill.
Career: I'm at an internship at a publisher which is beyond what I expected to happen. In addition, I've published a book and gotten a lot of artistic success, and it's still on its way up. I'm so happy.
Relationship: My relationship with my gf was arse at first due to bad communication and mutual immaturity, but we've really grown older and closer together, being more able to deal with difficulties now.
All in all: I haven't moved much, and mostly back, but my career really makes sure I have a stable core to sustain myself emotionally by. As is, I'm actually very happy, but it's been tough, and I haven't even properly dealt with most of my issues; atm they're mostly suspended due to me only being able to spend energy on working. I simply don't have the time or energy to be sad or sick.
Disgustipated
Deity
I'm suffering 2 serious health issues this year. It's been a bad year for me. Bilateral pulmonary embolism and deep vein thrombosis, and now what I suspect is stress fractures in my right foot (my x-rays came out negative and doctor said nothing is wrong, but it still hurts).
I cannot say I'm better off than I was 5 years ago. I was married 5 years ago and quite happy. Now I'm alone and my health is failing. Just 2 years ago I climbed the highest peak in Southern Nevada with the one I love now I can't hardly walk. It's very humbling.
I cannot say I'm better off than I was 5 years ago. I was married 5 years ago and quite happy. Now I'm alone and my health is failing. Just 2 years ago I climbed the highest peak in Southern Nevada with the one I love now I can't hardly walk. It's very humbling.
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I'll go with the Warpus format since its categories work nicely for me:
My financial state: Notably improved. Not that it was bad five years ago, but being seven years into my career now versus two then has positively impacted this.
My social state: Slight improvement, though less than I'd like. There has been some turbulence among my core friend group over the past year, so it's gone down on that front. But I've also made a number of friends through work and maintained some connections with college friends that I'd neglected from 2011-2013, so that cancels it out. On the whole I've reached the point where I'm less concerned about what the fallout of the drama among my core friends is, which probably means I'm more stable in this area than five years ago. Still significant improvement opportunities for 2023 me.
My healthiness state: About the same. Had some issues earlier this year, but (knock on wood) they seem to be improving. I've never been that athletic, but also have always been a healthy weight and at least make an effort to eat healthily. For the most part, that's held up and I've remained someone who should probably get more exercise, but is in average-or-better health. I'd like to maintain this and perhaps be a bit more well-exercised in 2023.
My emotional state: I was going to say similar, but now I remember May of 2013 I'll go with somewhat improved. I'm still not very good at self-motivation, and am a bit too averse to going out and trying things on my own. Five years ago, I'd let that go a bit too far, became isolated, and was only starting to emerge from it in May. Now, routine and work has kept things in better balance. I've also become more confident in my professional abilities, which has reduced self-doubt. Still rely on family as an anchor, but am slowly adding to my supply of anchors.
My professional state: Much better. I'd been out of work for the first part of 2013 and was just starting again this time of year. That wound up being my first really successful job, and it propelled me to the position I have today, and a state where I can say I'm one of the leaders on my team. Admittedly, 2016 is the overall high point thus far, as like Warpus I haven't been able to pursue my interests at work in the past 12 months nearly as much as the 12 months before that, but it's still much improved from 5 years ago.
My state of general curiosity: Similar. I haven't traveled out of the country since 2011, which I should rectify. But I made week-long road trips in the U.S. in 2016 and 2017, which is better than I did in 2012-2015. I've also reached the point at which I'm really reading books for pleasure for the first time since before I started college, which has been a nice change, and satisfies some of my curiosity about the world. For that matter I'm also more in tune with what's going on in the world, which while not entirely positive, has led to learning about a wide variety of topics.
My television: I have one now! So that's infinitely better. Although my computer and car are the same as five years ago (well, mostly the same for the computer).
Overall, I'd say I'm in a better state than five years ago. Less uncertain, really, would be the way to put it. I have career confidence now, finances that are up instead of down for the first five months of the year, and a somewhat wider social net, if still not up to average. 2013 would probably view 2018 me as having met expectations (in a good way), though not having particularly exceeded them.
On the other hand I'm still not really satisfied. I've proven myself to myself from a capability standpoint, and made a bit of progress on the social/curiosity front, but it's still a bit lacking. I agree with Warpus that more vacation time would help with the curiosity front, but it would also help to become better at making plans for the weekend (I'm much more likely to go do something if I plan it in advance, especially if I plan to do it with people. If I don't make plans, it's all to easy to wind up playing Civ or the equivalent most of the day). And socially, I'd like to find a long term relationship and/or really establish a second core group of friends (with a wider variety of interests) by 2023.
Glad to see a lot of familiar faces here; I've read all the replies through post #55. And has it really been five years since the last one of these or did someone post a similar thread in the interim?
My financial state: Notably improved. Not that it was bad five years ago, but being seven years into my career now versus two then has positively impacted this.
My social state: Slight improvement, though less than I'd like. There has been some turbulence among my core friend group over the past year, so it's gone down on that front. But I've also made a number of friends through work and maintained some connections with college friends that I'd neglected from 2011-2013, so that cancels it out. On the whole I've reached the point where I'm less concerned about what the fallout of the drama among my core friends is, which probably means I'm more stable in this area than five years ago. Still significant improvement opportunities for 2023 me.
My healthiness state: About the same. Had some issues earlier this year, but (knock on wood) they seem to be improving. I've never been that athletic, but also have always been a healthy weight and at least make an effort to eat healthily. For the most part, that's held up and I've remained someone who should probably get more exercise, but is in average-or-better health. I'd like to maintain this and perhaps be a bit more well-exercised in 2023.
My emotional state: I was going to say similar, but now I remember May of 2013 I'll go with somewhat improved. I'm still not very good at self-motivation, and am a bit too averse to going out and trying things on my own. Five years ago, I'd let that go a bit too far, became isolated, and was only starting to emerge from it in May. Now, routine and work has kept things in better balance. I've also become more confident in my professional abilities, which has reduced self-doubt. Still rely on family as an anchor, but am slowly adding to my supply of anchors.
My professional state: Much better. I'd been out of work for the first part of 2013 and was just starting again this time of year. That wound up being my first really successful job, and it propelled me to the position I have today, and a state where I can say I'm one of the leaders on my team. Admittedly, 2016 is the overall high point thus far, as like Warpus I haven't been able to pursue my interests at work in the past 12 months nearly as much as the 12 months before that, but it's still much improved from 5 years ago.
My state of general curiosity: Similar. I haven't traveled out of the country since 2011, which I should rectify. But I made week-long road trips in the U.S. in 2016 and 2017, which is better than I did in 2012-2015. I've also reached the point at which I'm really reading books for pleasure for the first time since before I started college, which has been a nice change, and satisfies some of my curiosity about the world. For that matter I'm also more in tune with what's going on in the world, which while not entirely positive, has led to learning about a wide variety of topics.
My television: I have one now! So that's infinitely better. Although my computer and car are the same as five years ago (well, mostly the same for the computer).
Overall, I'd say I'm in a better state than five years ago. Less uncertain, really, would be the way to put it. I have career confidence now, finances that are up instead of down for the first five months of the year, and a somewhat wider social net, if still not up to average. 2013 would probably view 2018 me as having met expectations (in a good way), though not having particularly exceeded them.
On the other hand I'm still not really satisfied. I've proven myself to myself from a capability standpoint, and made a bit of progress on the social/curiosity front, but it's still a bit lacking. I agree with Warpus that more vacation time would help with the curiosity front, but it would also help to become better at making plans for the weekend (I'm much more likely to go do something if I plan it in advance, especially if I plan to do it with people. If I don't make plans, it's all to easy to wind up playing Civ or the equivalent most of the day). And socially, I'd like to find a long term relationship and/or really establish a second core group of friends (with a wider variety of interests) by 2023.
Glad to see a lot of familiar faces here; I've read all the replies through post #55. And has it really been five years since the last one of these or did someone post a similar thread in the interim?
Lohrenswald
世界的 bottom ranked physicist
no
Everything's gone to shits since about that time (roughly the same time as I joined cfc so there's that)
I've nagged a lot to y'all since then, so it's kinda dumb to like do so again now but maybe. I've gotten pills which makes me like feel less **** but also make me think less I feel, so it's hard to like describe everything.
People in this thread have mentioned like intelectual curiosity or whatever and I feel that especially has gone to the pits for me. I feel kinda too lazy nowadays to engage with ideas or whatever, which is part of the reason I neither read or write much here nowadays. Even now, this post is a meanedring piece of garbage.
Well, to take a look at more concrete things, there's obviously university which I've sucked ass at. I haven't done any exam since 2015, and like, what have I been doing since then? vaguely half-assing some assignments, not read anything. I've gone to lectures but like, there's no results. And even besides like checks on papers, what have I learned? not much. 2013 was roughly when I started studying physics in high school, but like, I could hardly tell you anything about it. The only thing that seems somewhat clear in my head is baby's first newtonian mechanics, which is essentially worthless. And even then; a couple of months ago I tried to do some calculations, but couldn't remember the basic movement formulas, mostly I just saw at energy conservation, which is just balancing equations, which I learned when I was like 13. Last new thing I remember "learning" about was light polarisation and it makes no fudging sense.
It kinda breaks my heart because whenever I talk to people like for example universiy staff or my mom lol they always seem to comment I seem better now than before, but I'm just as much a piece of **** now, no progress at all. I guess it's the pills that put me in a better mood, but like, that's not what LIFE IS ABOUT, just being pleased all the time. I sort of can't imagine ever being able to "support myself", at least not at this rate, with absolutely zero qualificaions.
I haven't read much about it, but from what little I know I sort of feel like Nietzsche's last man, which is repulsive. Not knowing a lot about it seems to me to support that hypothesis.
I feel sort of "insane" at times. Useless wankery daydreaming, as well as like, thinking about what I believe in or whatever, contradictions in that, what other people say that I read on THE INTERNET
Also less physically active and out of shape lol
this post is rubbish, telling both more and less than I want to express, but I'm to lazy and/or incompetent to make it better. Could I have done so 5 years ago? maybe
I'm kinda sad some things I wanted to talk to the psychiatrist about never got said
Right now, as I'm struggling to write, there's like thoughts that are critical that sort of bubble under the surface, but don't make it through. I think I was a lot better at engaging these kinds of things before. Maybe I could without the pills.
I lost my train of thought, fudge
something about staring into the abyss, but clenching my eyes shut thightly
That abyss quote by Nietzsche is very often misused, cause it sounds very cool, but sadly in context it is about something very boring and particular. Nietzsche was speaking about german priest/church loving idealistic (as he meant it) mentality. The 'anti-life' mentality and people.
Thorgalaeg
Deity
It really doesnt matter what was Nietzche speaking about, it is one of the coolest quotes in history any way.
On the topic:
so that is me, an Even Steven. Not sure if it is something good though.
On the topic:
so that is me, an Even Steven. Not sure if it is something good though.
Which is why imo it is a shame that it refers to something boring, and also false (Nietzsche's definition of idealism is really poor). If i remember correctly, it was Nietzsche who spoke highly of a french treatise, which, as he put it, "has as its subject one of the most boring things possible: an attack against jesuits" ^_^
Maybe it was Sartre, though. I can't recall anymore; read that when i was 18...
