Got a call Tuesday night that my grandmother fainted, fell and broke her neck. Subsequent test shows she has pneumonia and an aggressive form of Leukemia. Shock set in and I felt nothing.
Woke up Wednesday morning and got dressed just in time to break down. Sobbed the whole way to work, then went home around 10 because I couldn't stop crying. I'm better today but the prognosis gets worse and worse. I can't afford to make two trips back to St Louis so I am working out with family if I should go before she dies (while she's semi-conscious at best most of the time) or for the funeral.
When I dropped out of high school, my parents kicked me out. This grandmother took me in and helped me grow into a man. She put me on the path that brought me here and now I'm not there for her. It hurts. She's like a second mom to me.

I was mostly raised by my grandmother, even before my parents' divorce, and even my mom finally had to admit that my grandmother had been more of a mother to me than she had.
I'm sorry that you and your family are going through this. Yes, it will be hard, but remember that there's no right or wrong way to handle what you're feeling. Sometimes you just have to take life hour by hour, never mind day by day. The emotions will probably be on a roller-coaster, so I hope you have someone who can be your support system when things get extra tough.
*hugs*