MobBoss said:
El_M how were you betrayed? PM me if you want, I am interested in what man can do that makes people turn away from God.
Hmmn, I guess that came across as vitriolic. Sorry.
The 'lie' that I was told was: God cares and God intervenes and God answers prayer.
One of those three are false, because my prayers to ask why God allowed innocent people to suffer horribly were never answered. (ie, He didn't care enough to intervene and He didn't care enough to answer an honest question)
In addition, God (apparently) loves you and doubting Thomas enough to provide proof of His existence and Plan, but does not love me enough to give me my needed answers. (Needed, such that there was real confusion regarding my questions of the 'problem of Evil').
So, I was left with a choice:
- fight my feelings of resentment towards a God who doesn't answer desperate prayers, ie. try to forgive what I think to be a callous creator OR
- stop believing in God (and thus making any feelings of resentment towards Him illogical)
Since the God that the Christians describe is not actually logical (to me), I figured it was more healthy to not believe in God (and thus, releasing that negative emotion) than hate Him.
In other words, there's more proof (definite proof) that God doesn't exist (as describe by any Christian) than that He does. In addition, I realise that any human is fallible, so it is possible that any human authority on God is mistaken, so there is no reasonable authority to assume He exists despite my doubts.