Felipe Massa says he has absolutely no recollection of his freak accident in Hungary - but reckons it prevented him from winning the race.
The Brazilian has pleased doctors with the speed of his recovery from the head injuries sustained when a spring from Rubens Barrichello's car hit him during qualifying at the Hungaroring, leaving him semi-conscious and unable to control his Ferrari as it ploughed into the barriers.
He was placed in an induced coma after surgery on skull damage, but has made good progress since and is set to be flown back to Brazil tomorrow.
"I know I'm lucky to be alive," Massa told the News of the World.
"I don't remember anything about the accident but I will race again.
"When I woke up I didn't know why I was in hospital, so I was asking 'why am I here?'
"I was pulling all the tubes and Eduardo, my brother, tried to stop me - so we had a fight.
"The accident was so unlucky but I know I'm lucky to be alive.
"I don't remember anything of what happened."
Massa added that when he learned how his team-mate Kimi Raikkonen had fared in the following day's race, he was convinced that he could have won had the accident not ruled him out.
"It was my race, so when I awoke from the coma I couldn't believe it when they told me Lewis [Hamilton] had won and Kimi was second," he said.