Ryika
Lazy Wannabe Artista
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I know people will not believe me, so I'll not even try to give evidence, because that won't change minds anyway. So let me just get to the point. For a week now, I have been dating an Alien. Yes, an actual Alien. Like, a being from outer space. He is almost a meter taller than me, and he looks unlike anything that I've seen in movies, so he's really hard to describe.
Well... "hard" is the wrong word to describe him, because he's not hard at all. But he isn't soft either. Touching him is a feeling that I have never known before, I am unsure if I can even say how he "feels", because the impression of "feeling" him does not only resonate with my hand, but instead takes place mostly on the level of thought. I do feel him like I would feel anything else, but at the same time, it is like his body transfers emotions into my head, emotions that override the actual feeling. It's fascinating.
Anyway. So I've been dating that Alien for a week now, and so far I'm really happy. At least I think I am, but the thing is... we can't really communicate. Well, he can, through his skin, and I feel like I really know a lot about him, where he's from, why he's here, and what he finds fascinating about me, why he chose me in the first place. And that he's happy as well, and wants to stay with me. I however feel like I can't share my appreciation for him at all. It is like.. well, watching a movie, just that the movie is speaking directly towards you, but you still don't have a way of tell the people in the movie that you appreciate them, too. When I talk, he does not react. When I show emotions, he does not react. I think he does not "understand", maybe not even recognize, what I am doing. His state of being is so different from my own.
I can't tell whether that bothers him or whether he's fine with me just being his girlfriend, or whether he's expecting more of me. The feelings that he conveys to me certainly don't make it seem like he is, but I don't know... I can't shake of that feeling of being a leech that just benefits from his devotion towards me. I feel like I'm not giving back enough, well, not giving back anything at all. Not because I don't want to, but because I am unable, physically unable to be exact, to give back.
It's an unusual situation that I've found myself in so I guess it's not really possible for anybody to give me direct advice, but any thoughts and suggestions on how I could start giving back some of the warmth that he has brought to me, and whether I should even try to do that or whether I should just continue to enjoy his presence, would be well appreciated.
Well... "hard" is the wrong word to describe him, because he's not hard at all. But he isn't soft either. Touching him is a feeling that I have never known before, I am unsure if I can even say how he "feels", because the impression of "feeling" him does not only resonate with my hand, but instead takes place mostly on the level of thought. I do feel him like I would feel anything else, but at the same time, it is like his body transfers emotions into my head, emotions that override the actual feeling. It's fascinating.
Anyway. So I've been dating that Alien for a week now, and so far I'm really happy. At least I think I am, but the thing is... we can't really communicate. Well, he can, through his skin, and I feel like I really know a lot about him, where he's from, why he's here, and what he finds fascinating about me, why he chose me in the first place. And that he's happy as well, and wants to stay with me. I however feel like I can't share my appreciation for him at all. It is like.. well, watching a movie, just that the movie is speaking directly towards you, but you still don't have a way of tell the people in the movie that you appreciate them, too. When I talk, he does not react. When I show emotions, he does not react. I think he does not "understand", maybe not even recognize, what I am doing. His state of being is so different from my own.
I can't tell whether that bothers him or whether he's fine with me just being his girlfriend, or whether he's expecting more of me. The feelings that he conveys to me certainly don't make it seem like he is, but I don't know... I can't shake of that feeling of being a leech that just benefits from his devotion towards me. I feel like I'm not giving back enough, well, not giving back anything at all. Not because I don't want to, but because I am unable, physically unable to be exact, to give back.
It's an unusual situation that I've found myself in so I guess it's not really possible for anybody to give me direct advice, but any thoughts and suggestions on how I could start giving back some of the warmth that he has brought to me, and whether I should even try to do that or whether I should just continue to enjoy his presence, would be well appreciated.
