Born and raised an atheist, turned to Christianity of my own accord with little or no influence, grew up and turned away from it, as a young child a believer, as a prepubescant a true believer, as a teenager, who learnt about the damage religion has and could do, a non believer, why believe in something that you have logically seen causes so much ill.
You wake up and then you despair, then you turn against religion, and then you find science, it has a brutal sort of comfort. But of course you are not allowed to make a decision against belief as a teenager, you have to be wrong because your beliefs are too much pointed towards a lack of wisdom, jshyah! right, and now and when I went to turn back to religion at twenty, and then when I forsook it, my entire beliefs are moribund because you've decided I have no ability to judge where I come from and what I believe, so if I turn back to religion again as I might, that also is a lack of understanding, and then when I turn against it again, Jesus H corbet it's always you can't quite get it, not you can just come to your own beliefs, everything you do is childish and pointless until you get the message. Believe or you are wrong and they wonder why so many people turn away, because you are just worng and that's just the b all and end all.
Can I not find my way by myself and if I don't I'm going to hell, Shazbut! Well whatever you go play your mind games with someone who cares, because your wasting your time with me. Or are you
Just agnostic and it brings me the most hapiness and comfort I've ever known.