My mother's mother is having considerable difficulty recovering from a surgery, several complications having arisen. An interesting backstory to this is the fact that her, and my mother's siblings, unapologetically and hatefully tried to split up our family (parents, me, sibling) a few months ago, so there's hostility between us and her extended family. Chances are, I get to drive my mother--a nice 3 1/2 hour trip plus whatever winter conditions may exist on the way--to be with a bunch of people who I detest, just so my mother can be there for her family. Likely, I get to be alone in taking her, since the others' schedules will probably not permit it. She can't drive herself, being physically handicapped. And since her mother was in on that whole thing, it's a difficult task to decide what to do in regards to her, since it could very well be the last time I see her alive.
And, in addition to this nice pile of stress, is the fact that someone I care greatly about is studying abroad in Mexico until late spring. Besides missing her, every time I read news of drug war killings and what not going on there, it scares the hell out of me.
I'd take a walk or run to calm down, but it's 1 above zero Fahrenheit outside. Ah hell, I might just go anyway.
.
