Narz said:
Hmm, I find comfort in logic. I think, well, if I keep thinking of positive and productive ways to use my current circumstances to get ahead then eventually I will (or die trying I suppose, but that beats dying defeated!).
That's kinda the problem - through logics i get : "I must fight to the death."
Through religion i get : "I must fight for my life". (fight ref to general struggle).
I know those 2 sentences have the same meaning (to a certain extent); but the way it is said is what matters (psychologicaly).
They also come in the order : Relgion, Logics.
The strange thing about how religion affects me is that it only works when i am in a good mood or in a desastrous mood (i have only been in this way about 5 times in my life - i don't want to tell what i mean through this).
But i am usualy (1/3 of the day) in a neutral or bad mood in which i REALLY don't care about religion and all that stuff. So at this stage, logics never could/can improve my mood - it only keeps me ... "hanging not falling".Exactly like i was for 5-6 years when i was an atheist.
Don't get me wrong i do not shift between 2 personalities - logics is always present, i can't get rid of it, but i sometimes forget God is around too
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Believing in God is a much greater effort than logics.
Logics = stating the obvious
Religion = trying to go past the trivial logic that everyone knows and uses, to defy, to go past these neat little rules and pre-concieved ideas around us, to answer when others say "We don't know that".
This is what makes me want to learn more , to know and understand what others don't bother to think .
I'm not saying that by doing this i know THE answers to those questions ... no no no , it means that i have ONE answer.
Ok - phylosophy time is over ...
Narz said:
Suicide is your only option.
Easier said than done.
- unfortunately i cannot commit suicide
God won't let me
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