Was a customer at that second hand book shop , loser from head to toe . People usually can't stop laughing at me
i got the lowest prize in national informatics olympiad and people around me can't stop laughing at me. that's how I have ptsd in competition.
there were a person gotten himself into top 42 people in national mathematics olympiad then failed to get into top 6 and people laughing at him comparing him to my brother which drove him into serious madness and currently unable to study anymore. luckily his parents are rich tho.
people just laugh at others.
regretting the opportunities lost
i alr lost quite a lot of opportunities. my brother told me to stop thinking about the past and keep moving forward, choosing the best action. he must be true since he's smarter than me in every way. like a superior human being comparing to me.
the first time he shaped my life is when he came back from Hanoi, ended up redesigning every aspect of my learning process, leading to the result that I got into specialized high school for the gifted in my province.
the second time is that his words made me to start empirically investigating the cause of my failures, one of a big factor changing my life.
i understand that not everyone has someone they consider extremely great that is close to them, to guide and show them a better way to play life but there really always exists a way to improve someone's current situation.
whatever the problem I faced and failed. its reasons should be one of the following or all of them:
- my cognitive level is not good enough. therefore, I cannot see the solution.
- I didn't asked for those who have a good enough cognitive level or have the ability to solve my problems that is willing to solve it with a kind heart. therefore, I cannot receive the possible solution.
- I didn't handle risk well enough while heading for the highest expectation. or even worse, I headed into negative expectation.
- I am lazy and my productivity is low.
Or you curse him/her and are discovered and the will is replaced and you end up a pauper for real .
would very well be my fault. i must have been an unworthy person.
would have been a hard time to choose either exchange my organ for money to venture investment <=> trade life expectancy for a chance to shrine or just live a normal life.
if you are gonna be inherited a lot of money, you should have plan for investment right?
time passes , you end up 50 and wake up every morning checking if anything on your body hurts for whatever reason . Save some of the gloom for later years , it is not always a straight line down to hell .
it would be very sad. but the option to either grasp fire or got burnt by fire is still there. given you have lived a normal life, the wealth you accumulate still enough for you to make a decision that change your life into either better or worse.
Like preparing to get invaded ?
there exists a lot of rich people here who diversified their assets into other countries. or dual nationality. you never know if when crap hit the fan and everything went to oblivion. sri lanka nowadays is an example.
that's also how bonds are extremely important in investment.