I like the scenario, it's completely different from what I am used to (and it's giving me a lot of headaches...) But I would first like to finish this one before starting a new one. Turn times are pretty high (usually, when I open the game I spent like 15min just looking at the situation, thinking about what could be tried next --- and trying to remember what went on last time...

), so I can't afford a second game like this.
Yes, this is a test game in order to find out, whether the game is balanced. When I played a little single-player test game prior to jumping in as a replacement, I thought, "no way this is balanced! Germany is way too over-powered, I was able to push over Russia in just a few turns on Emperor." But when I started the game against real humans, I was in for quite a few nasty surprises...

Now I think that Germany has no real chance... Well, we'll need to finish, if we want to find out.
However, semental, I can fully understand your aversions: it doesn't make any sense to force yourself to do things that you actually hate to do. I have feelings like these myself sometimes, and it can really take the fun out of life at times.
In that case, instead of dragging on reluctantly, you ought to find a replacement and free your mind again for the things you enjoy.
As for me, I'm still enjoying the game. (Or let's rather say: I'm
again enjoying the game...) I have regained a bit of hope during the last dozen turns or so, and it is an interesting challenge again. (Although I admit that the Allies still have the much better chances for victory and will probably win in the end.)
A comment on the game itself: I've been thinking about it a bit and it seems to me that 46 turns is too short for a big scenario like this. How about making it 2 turns per month for the next version?
Lanzelot