Enormous divirging from my previous posts in the thread:
I was a bit earlier, and to some extent also yesterday, hysterically panicking about university.
My progression has now gotten so low I technically can lose my study right.
Seemingly it's not a huge problem; there are ways to accommodate, and I'm even allowed to reapply if I get thrown out, but I still feel uneasy about everything.
Thing is, people keep telling me I seem better (less depressed and so on), but I think that's mostly due to that I've kept away from most things that depress and stress me lately, which is chiefly the university, and also thanks to antidepressives.
This kinda makes me sad, because if I have been getting better, I no longer have an excuse to fail anymore, but I feel like I'd crack under the pressure immidiatly if I try to go back now. I could delay returning until spring, but I kinda assume I'd feel exactly the same when that comes too.
What am I supposed to tell the study councilor?
I'm like supposed to be a grown man, why am I such a talentless baby