Kentharu
Zebra Commander
Orders sent.
Hey Thlayli,
My orders may be slightly late, in around 6 PM.
So I assume i've been approved?
January 3, 1901
My Dearest Christina,
As our pace through this dark wilderness quickens with every passing day, this may be the very last letter that I may write as God allows and wills it. Should He not allow my hand to write you again, I feel compelled to speak soft words unto your lips most beautiful until the night reaches pitch black and I can steady my hand no more.
As we move through westward to the shining sea that Providence has given mandate for ours to deliver, our steps may blaze with triumphant glory or be laced with the infernal tyranny of tragedy. But this is not my will to decide in the coming days, but our God’s. And should I fall for what is dearly ours, that is a sacrifice that I will gladly make. I am ready to surrender before the dark embrace of Death should that be His will, and my courage before the treacheries that are yet to come shall not falter. For when I look upon enemies great and many, I know that I have come to pay a debt for my fathers and forefathers before me, that held the line for so many a time even when all hope was lost, when their bastions were surrounded and their supplies cut, that fought and swore to take ten Franks to their grave with them. I know that it is only our nation, and the gift of civilization bestowed upon it by our Lord, that may return the scattered and despairing lands back to the fold of His light. And now when our country has returned to avenge our forefathers and return to our King what was taken, I will gladly surrender my life for them.
But I know, my dear love, that by fulfilling my compact and securing in honor my joys, I know that I wreak yours, and replace them in this life that God gave with only sorrow and tears, bringing worry and sorrow into your heart and that of our children. I know that by abiding to this greater creed, fierce and noble, I have cast it into struggle with another, my boundless love for you and what we in have brought into this world with His grace.
I have sought in my heart and soul for the wrongness in motive, weakness or dishonor, as I thrust into danger the happiness of those I have loved, and I return without one to bear. For the love of my country and its purest principles have been called upon by Him, and I have only by unfaltering obedience to command.
But fear not, Christina, for my love for you is unbroken by the chains that cast down our lot on this mortal plane. It binds me to you with points of light, that only his divine He may provide, and will last forever past even the end of days. As I write to you on this night blessed without the light of stars, I know that I only need your light to inflame my soul. The moments that He had such generosity to allow me to share with You fill me with the most ethereal of happiness, and give assurance to my heart that I have done right on this earth. I know I have but few and humble prayers to offer before the might of our God, but those that do whisper my name, perhaps our little sons, could deliver me from the battlefield without harm. But should I fall before the dark legion that opposes our will, never forget how much I have loved and will always love you, and as I draw breath for the last time, my feeble lips will whisper your name.
Forgive all the thoughtless and selfish things I have done, and all the pain that I have caused you in whatever recklessness I have so pursued. If I could only have the opportunity to come down from heaven and wash away any ill that troubles you, to struggle with all the evil and darkness that plagues the world to shield you and our children from harm. But the laws of Providence bid me not, and so I must watch you struggle against them with our children and wait with sad longing until the stars can part us no more.
Tell my boys that while I may have fallen for them to free the land of chains wracked long ago, I will watch over them as I will you. I know the unfaltering ability of your maternal power, and know that it will bring little George and Jeremiah to manhood with the utmost care and development in their characters.
Christina, if I have but one wish, it shall be that you will not mourn me dead, only think I have gone and you will wait for me through the travails of life, for we shall meet again.
Alexander