Part III
Chapter XXX
"How is it possible, though?" she asks, leaning in on her mount to study my face.
The beach is quiet, except for the gust of wind that snap at us every few moments.
"Here will do," I tell her and dismount. The horse whinnies as I lead it toward a blackened log on shore, where I slipknot a rope from the stirrups to a protruding knob on the washed up tree.
She does the same and then unpacks her satchel, lifting out a wooden panel, parchment and quills. She sits down and spreads out the writing material over the plank on her lap.
I step closer to the shore and watch the edge of the water.
"I am aware you didn't answer my question," she says.
"I'm sorry. There are things I can't talk about."
"Your memory again? Are you trying to protect us from something when you say you have lost many memories of the past? From some painful truth?"
"No," I answer. "I honestly don't remember the answers to most things you ask me. Something happened in a past life and...and it's just gone." Lately, though, among these people, shaping their culture along more familiar lines, I have begun to hear whispers from the past. Names. I'm remembering the names. "In this case, though, the secret to how I don't age isn't even mine."
"Someone else's magic?"
"Something like that."
"Is it a curse?" she asks, looking up from her writing. "Is it a curse to live forever?"
"Who's to say. It's just the way things are for me now."
"Sometimes I look at you, and I think it must be a curse."
"Oh really. What times are those?"
"When you don't look at me."
"Excuse me?" I answer, turning toward her.
"People told stories to me about you and Prime Minister Anthousa, about how she was your aide before she was elected to the Senate. They warned me that deep down, you weren't interested in me, but only wanted to take a young lover."
"And still you accepted the job?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Greatness requires sacrifice," she says. "You've often said as much."
I turn away, half repulsed and half impressed.
"But you're not like that. You're not interested in me."
"Maybe you're not my type."
"Your type? The type you'd be attracted to, is that what you mean? You selected me for my academic talents. Wouldn't that attract you, if anything could? I'd say you don't have a type. I've done my research."
"Research?"
"Many of the scrolls in the collection are recorded stories of you. Some of them go back a thousand years. None of them talk of you taking a wife, or seducing young girls like the gods of old."
"No, no..."
"That's why I say it's a curse. You don't allow yourself a life. Maybe you are afraid to love any of us, because you know you will outlive us all."
"There," I say, cutting her off. At the edge of the river delta, a barge appears.
As it nears, the early morning light catches the white slabs being carried on the boat as the deckmen steer it through the currents with long reed poles.
She sets down her writing materials and rises to join me. "It will be beautiful. I can see it in my mind's eye. A frontice of marble shining in the dawn. It will be a temple to knowledge," she says, her tone almost lustful. "It will be wonderful."
"A wonderful beginning," I agree. "But we'll need more than this surface material. We'll need a proper quarry to extract enough for more buildings."
"More? You haven't mentioned the need for 'more' buildings like the library." I see that she has turned, looking behind us at the contours of the city illuminated by the dawn.
"Oh," I answer quietly, watching the barge draw closer to us on its way to the construction site, to the city. "There will be more."