Still meandering through
Swann's Way. I did finally get to the part where they say the name of the book in the book v Swann's Way is one of the two paths the narrator and his parents take for walks. Most probably Proust didn't just pick the title at random from one of the terms in the book, and Swann himself will probably figure more prominently in the future, but for now he's just been one of the cast, popping in and out every now and then.
The blasted narrator insists on describing every single blasted feeling he gets in his walks. There was a passage on a bunch of lilies and a river or a stream or a pond that seemed to go on forever, and I had to read it over and over again because my mental grip was slipping (and I'm secretly a masochist who won't just skip a passage and must needs suffer everything that comes my way). It was beautifully poetic, but you can bear beautiful poetry for only so long, and I just want to get on with the story.
I originally wrote that the narrator describes every sight he sees, but changed it to "feeling" because that seems more appropriate. It is not only the outer physical aspect that the narrator describes but also the way it made him feel and/or how the thing is a metaphor for Combray or for life in general. The narrator is also obsessed with capturing and analysing the feelings he gets from scenic landscapes and flowers and scents and stuff, something I think
@Angst is or may be interested in. At one point, after a chapter's worth of telling us how he wanted so badly to retrieve the memory and feeling of this image or that smell he finally does jot down his impressions of three (church-towers?) on the way back in a cart ride. It is not very illuminating, but I did get that the towers take on the aspect of women seeing off someone going on a journey, both physically and otherwise (metaphorically?).
Even though there has been no chapter break (or any that I can remember) since the time the narrator was munching on his aunt's confectionery and guzzling her tea, the story has progressed, in the background. Aunt Louise (or was it Great-Aunt Louise?) has finally passed away, as well as M. Vintreuil, a poor reduced composer known for encouraging the narrator's artistic tendencies and for doting on his daughter (and for some ultra-minor scandal blown over by the gossiping women in the family which I didn't really catch). This daughter we last met in a park as an awkward tomboy, but at moment of going to press seems to have grown up enough to engage in adult behaviour with another woman (really a very unpleasant scene in more ways than one). Now I was sure this daughter was the same age as the narrator, and so assumed the narrator was grown up too, but he is still being sent to bed early and weeping the whole night because he can't see his Mama (though he sees her all the time during the day).
The entire story is told via the reminiscing of the narrator who is now an old man in a nursing home or the like. These memories (of his childhood, mostly at least) are aroused by the play of some lamp on the wall, casting shadows which recall to him characters and incidents from Combray. Judging by the length of the book – and what I saw from Googling the book – he will continue in this vein into his adulthood at least. It's very interesting and fun to see how this affects the narrative style – sometimes the narrator will tell us something from the time period he is reminiscing about, and then briefly move onto the future (but still the past) to hint at what happened then.
Weirdly, the narrator hasn't been given a name so far. In fact I think only once is his surname even mentioned, and even then it's his mother who is being addressed. I don't know if we'll learn of his name at any point in the book – the narrator does hint at some relationships with women in the eventual future, would be awkward if they didn't address him by his name even once. On the other hand I hope we get an explanation, or some idea at least, for why he has a nameless childhood.
There are some great humorous parts in the book, sprinkled here and there, but very deliciously subtle. There are other great non-humorous passages as well
that almost arrogant charity of a man of the world who, amid the dissolution of all his own moral prejudices, finds in another's shame merely a reason for treating him with a friendly benevolence, the outward signs of which serve to enhance and gratify the self-esteem of the bestower because he feels that they are all the more precious to him upon whom they are bestowed
And these dreams reminded me that, since I wished, some day, to become a writer, it was high time to decide what sort of books I was going to write. But as soon as I asked myself the question, and tried to discover some subjects to which I could impart a philosophical significance of infinite value, my mind would stop like a clock, I would see before me vacuity, nothing, would feel either that I was wholly devoid of talent, or that, perhaps, a malady of the brain was hindering its development.
Of course he would never have admitted all or any of this in the poetical language which my family and I so much admired. And if I asked him, "Do you know the Guermantes family?" Legrandin the talker would reply, "No, I have never cared to know them." But unfortunately the talker was now subordinated to another Legrandin, whom he kept carefully hidden in his breast, whom he would never consciously exhibit, because this other could tell stories about our own Legrandin and about his snobbishness which would have ruined his reputation for ever; and this other Legrandin had replied to me already in that wounded look, that stiffened smile, the undue gravity of his tone in uttering those few words, in the thousand arrows by which our own Legrandin had instantaneously been stabbed and sickened, like a Saint Sebastian of snobbery...