Hygro
soundcloud.com/hygro/
well, I'm back to my rut. Really losing hope fast.
I really did try in the past 2 years. As much as I think I could, at least. And now things are back to getting worse each and every day. Things will level off and be stable, but it takes a herculean effort to get back on the upswing. I don't think I have many attempts left.
Everybody ups and downs. It won't take a Herculean effort, because it can't. It will take time and self care and will happen naturally. Three years ago I measured myself to be on five year cycles since the age of 12, with some better than others. As far as I can tell, it doesn't stop, but self care will define if you're having healthy ups and downs vs unhealthy ups and downs.