Plan A: The original plan. Go live at home for three months and hang around. Don't work (I don't need the money) and instead put my time towards reading and researching for my senior thesis in international relations. Which of course, would heavily involve reading wonderful and interesting history books I don't get to over the course of the regular year. Already have a reading list of around 13 built up. Would be a relaxing, and fun summer.
Plan B: My professor notified me of an on-going project at the university for a traveling museum exhibit. It was to portray Iowa, and Iowans, during the Second World War, and connect the state to the larger global history. I'd do original, archival research (on a POW camp in Iowa of all places!), and have my name attached to the project and exhibit. How cool is that? Great for a resume, and it sounds like a ton of fun! I'd have the option of doing it over the summer, in the spring, or both. The spring would be a class and be more stringent, as opposed to the independent study with a professor I like supervising it. I'd also have a blast reading all those books I don't get to read during the year.
Here's were the trouble lies. I hate living here, in my current conditions. My apartment is awful, I hate my roommates, the most obnoxious being the one who's going to live here over the summer. It's a wholly unhealthy, unacademic environment. And if I were to say even a week longer I'd literally go insane. I'm already at my limit for living here, the drugs, smoke, partying, and alcohol making for a sickening atmosphere.
And so in order to do Plan B, which I'd really like to do, I have two choices. I can either continue living in my apartment, and go crazy and hate myself. Probably flake out halfway through even though I paid for the class. I don't want to do this, I don't want to live here.
Or, I'd go live in the dorms for the summer. Buy a meal plan, and live by myself in quiet harmony. This of course comes with its own problems. It's expensive, and I'm not sure I want to pay it (though I'm also not sure how long I'd be in the city doing research, so that impacts the price). And secondly, I don't know what to do about my rent for my current apartment if I leave to live in the dorms. Would I be able to break contract and not pay for the summer months? Would I forfeit my deposit money? I'm not going to pay both, I wouldn't be able to afford it.
I really want to stay and do research, and attach myself to this awesome project. I just can't stand to live here anymore. I also hate the idea of my living circumstances getting in the way of my academic career. I hate this so much, and I'm at a loss at what to do.