1. The semester's nearly over, but the work isn't. Work is never over, never has been, never will be. One of my classes in particular is incredibly godawful, in part due to the obnoxious prof. I spend day after day working from 8PM to 3AM working on the bloody paper, and what does the prof say? "It's not good enough! Destroy it all and start from scratch!" This is the second bloody time I've had to do this! And it REALLY doesn't help that she doesn't talk so much as babble a string of buzzwords for ten minutes straight, even when she's answering a yes or no question. I can't communicate with her. Our minds operate in ways that are completely alien to one another, and I can barely understand a word she says because she rambles inanely without interruption for so long using vapid and meaningless words. I have an easier time communicating with dogs or horses than with her. The course has taught me nothing except the sensation of prolonged sleep deprivation and a small dose of misogyny. It is useless and frustrating, and I'll have to take a similar course next year. AAAAAGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And I mentioned misogyny because I've only ever really had painful communication problems with females. I know most aren't like that, but too many of them just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk but don't actually say anything! I never have this problem with guys; when we talk, it's either quick and to the point, or in-depth and interesting. They don't really babble like some women do. I'm trying hard not to be sexist or bigoted, but sometimes, people make it difficult. Maybe it'll eventually go away with my foul mood... Anyway, if college continues to be like this, then it doesn't matter if I'd make a good history professor and like it; I'd rather get a leg blown off by a land mine in some godforsaken desert in the military or a company or something than go through this mind-numbing, meaningless trial full of useless assignments and readings on useless little research papers on useless little topics that nobody has ever willingly read.
2. The Forum doesn't allow swearing.
3. I've been trying to stay in contact with my old host family in Germany, but few of them ever check their FB accounts. I've asked to Skype with them for months (not too often, though), and when they say they will, they don't. They rarely respond, and sometimes it takes months for them to do so.
4. My history professor is still wrong in so many ways.
5. Recently there was a course introduced that would have both taken the place of my hell-class and a history credit, and it looks fun besides. Of course, it was introduced well after I was already mired in that godawful class.
6. I have few, if any friends on campus. My lack of transportation, my personality, and the lack of interesting activities mean that there is nothing for me here but work and anger.
7. Why is it that I'm barely able to feel things like happiness, excitement, eagerness, and so on, but I can still feel anger, frustration, loneliness, sadness, and anxiety just fine?
8. I was making some great posts in a Facebook thread when FB tells me that it's spam and I might get blocked. Why?! And with hundreds of millions of users and not nearly enough staff, it's impossible for them to fix this problem for everyone.