It was in the endless moment of Afaja's death that I first became aware of myself. It was the end of the era of cosmic unity. Thought I had never known it, I immediately reeled from its loss.
Spinning around me, mixing within and without me, were four other spirits, each one sundered from the Totality. I immediately recognized the first as my kin. Thwapp is his name now, but in that first encounter, he and I were but two confused minds, each lost and grasping for familiarity, each feeling isolation for the first time. He lay on the edge between primordial dark and burning light. He was the first I knew... though time meant little then. It would be more accurate to say that I knew him best, and most vividly. I remember his laughter, the comfort of his brotherly embrace... and then he fell, he tumbled away from me. Not in space, but in mind, as the petty madness overtook him. The separation from Afaja was too much for him. I watched him fall, and no power of mine could bring it back.
A second familiar spirit also spun through this chaos, for Curator too was my brother. He was quiet and staid from the beginning, betraying no joy or remorse at his father's death. He merely observed, and quietly evaded observation.
The third spirit was much like my brother Curator in mind, but he was very alien in kind. Tsamnir he was, the guardian of balance. He was born not of the flesh of Afaja, but was woven out of the stuff of the Void. A counterpoint, perhaps, to the frivolity and chaos of Thwapp, who was ever one to throw another off balance.
The fourth and final spirit was the most alien of them all. He was an Aetherial, a Void-born creature like Tsamnir. Primanus, they call him now. He bewildered me in that first moment, transmuting the dead flesh of Afaja into soil, then back from soil into a state of animate being. He had created countless tiny spirits in what I believed, at that moment, to be crude mockery of the deceased. It would be some time before I would accept that his joy at his little creation... life... was genuine. For while he rejoiced in the creation of the new order, I knew only grief for the loss of the old.
A great many things happened in the instant before time. Many of them feel no more real than a figment, while others are as vivid and lucid as a waking dream. An unending web of stories could be told from the first instant. Some stand out more than others. I remember with great clarity that over time we became accustomed to our individuality, our separateness. We became native to our isolation, and as we accepted this, our forms became less mixed, and more tangible. Thus did we begin to drift apart, and take on physical form.
Only my elder brother, the Curator, wore no form at all, although I could still detect his essence in myriad other ways. I had once believed that I too would bear no shape, but it was not to be. Standing alongside my fellow primordials, I could feel my difference, and my ever-growing isolation. I was made of the stuff of darkness, the Shadow of Ifaja. I alone was stung by the sun, and remained arrayed against it. Each of the others had made peace with the scarring light.
The Pest, the Gardener and the Guardian each clad themselves in raiments which reflected the light of the sun. This was to be expected. Thwapp, my benighted young brother, was lost in his madness. The other two were Aetherials, beings as alien and unlike myself as I could have ever imagined. It was only natural for them to flout propriety.
I consulted my brother Curator on this matter, as much as one can. He gave little spoken advice, but in his company I beheld the faintest visions of what was yet to come. Whispers of a treacherous brother tormented the back of my mind, and I foresaw a young spirit bearing an image of the sun into my strongest fastnesses, pinpricks of light stabbing into me, pursuing me to the very ends of existence. I shuddered in fear, and questioned him no further.
Yet from fear, came resolve. In time, I came to understand my place, and the realities of my situation. I had two brothers in flesh, and naught but four companions in the world. I had one enemy. Of the primordials, I alone bore the essence of Afaja, that portion of which had been destroyed by the coming of the Sun. This was the matter of which I was composed. I comprehended that I had a duty to uphold this legacy of the all-father, and I knew I would not shirk it. I would not abandon this world to be ruled by a murderer and a usurper. I would protect the primal darkness, I would embrace and nourish it, so that one day it could be restored to its rightful place.
Thus, did the world come to be divided between us, the five primordials: Three Scions of Afaja, two Aetherials of the Void. As I stood upon the dead body of my father, I steeled my resolve, and drew a veil of shadows around my form, forever hiding it from view. Thus did my long toil commence. My trials would be many.