Ive never slept with an emperor before, I heard an inviting voice whisper in my ear, warm currents of air gentling buffeting me. I kept my body rigid, pretending I did not hear the sultry invitation as the maidservant straightened from pouring my drink and went to pour one for my mother, exaggeratedly swaying her hips as she moved away from me.
You may leave now. I said, in the best regal, condescending tone I could muster. I noticed the maidservant making an alone? pout in my direction but I ignored it, though I was more unsuccessful at ignoring the deep bow she gave which gave me a view of previously inaccessible places.
As the maidservant left, I heard my mother sigh. Darling, you dont have to stay if you dont want to. Making a motion with her hand towards the now departed maidservant she continued, That is why Emperors have advisors, to take care of the boring work so that the Emperor is free to have fun.
Steeling myself, I allowed my eyes to meet hers, forcing myself not to break her gaze. I had heard, of course, all the rumors. That though my father ruled the Empire, my mother ruled him. It was no great secret, indeed, towards the end of his life, my father didnt even bother even pretending to be the ruler, simply secluding himself away in at Caer Bechet while my mother oversaw the army, with me following her like a little lap-dog. That is why when Caer Bechet fell, my father died, and not my mother, nor me. I make no excuses, he was a terrible Emperor, weak-willed, ineffective, but he was my father, and so I mourn for his death. An Emperor rules, mother, and that is what I intend to do, rule.
I could imagine I saw in her eyes fire, an unholy conflagration that would have gladly consumed me. But, perhaps, it was my imagination. Popular gossip had turned my mother into a strange and terrible beast. Once, when I was very young, I asked Cadeyrn about why such rumors swirled about my mother. Your mother, he said after a moment, does not eat and drink like normal folks, but she eats the souls of men and drinks the sweat of their brow, and that is why people hate her. I did not, at the time, understand what he meant by that, but I think, perhaps, now I do. My mother drank deep draughts from the cup filled with power, and every once in a while she allowed others the merest sip. And yet for most men, that slightest sip intoxicated them more than the strongest wine, so that they would do anything for her to be allowed another taste.
It was my mother who broke eye contact first, with a small little laugh and wave of her hand, as if such matters were inconsequential. Suit yourself, but dont blame me if youre bored to death. I felt a small flush of pleasure at her words. Undoubtedly she would make this meeting as boring as possible, hoping to drive me away from ever wanting to do anything besides hunt and use my position as Emperor to seduce women. Still, I felt as if I had won a great victory. There were not many people who stood up to my mother. Off the top of my head, I could only think of one who could do so with impunity, Cadeyrn.
Cadeyrn was the Grandmaster of the Order of the Sons of Sol. He had been a member from its very inception, recruited by none other than my mother, or so the rumor went. I think Cadeyrn represented one of my mothers few political blunders. Though I had never found out what, everyone assumed that my mother had something on Cadeyrn, something that would cause him to obey her without question, or perhaps she just thought she could seduce him with promises of power, like she had so many before, and after, him. Whatever claim she thought she had on him, however, proved to be non-existent. Cadeyrn was one of those dangerous men who saw things in black-and-white. He obeyed the Church, and obeyed the Emperor because the Church told him to. He killed, by order of the Church, he saved, by order of the Church. When the Church commanded, he obeyed.
And so, Cadeyrn was like a hunting falcon. He would faithfully attack the prey that the Church set him against, without question, without complaint. But I think that which made him such a useful tool, also made him a dangerous weapon. For Cadeyrn was that most dangerous of men, a fanatic. And fanatics are so dangerous, because they are so irrational. Men act for their own good, this is a law of nature. But fanatics, they ignore this holy law, for they answer to one that they believe is higher. And if this higher law commanded them, they would throw away everything, friendship, loyalty, life, honor. And I think that my mother could never escape the fear that one day, this higher law would ask Cadeyrn to do something that would work against my mother, and he would do it without second thought. As long as the Iceni Church went through her husband, the Emperor, I think my mother thought herself safe. But now, she was forced to sacrifice her religious power in order to keep her political power, and Cadeyrn now answers to the Gallic Church, not her.
If my mother fears anything, has any weakness, that is it. Yes
in this battle for power between my mother and me, I think Cadeyrn may prove useful.