Random Rants XVII: Rage Against the Machine
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Gilder
Deity
I'm going to have a horrible headache in about two hours.
Edit: Also, the weather in Providence blows.
Edit: Also, the weather in Providence blows.
Kozmos
Jew Detective
Man...I wish you were around here -_-'
Cheezy the Wiz
Socialist In A Hurry
I cannot for the life of me pry Riga out of Lithuanian hands. ![[pissed]](/images/smilies/pissed.gif "Pissed [pissed]")
Sashie VII
Balance of Power
Runny nose, and I still have 8 hours to go before I can leave the office.
Shylock
Hey smiling strange
Probably in for another bout with an unidentified gut disease that causes diarrhea but nothing else.
I was right, it's already starting.
I was right, it's already starting.
I cracked today.
It was after school when not many people were around and it was only for a couple of minutes, but for a time I was a complete monster. I lost all sense of direction, all sense of morality. I attack anything that is nearby. I let out a scream, a roar. Thank God for gun control.
I realized how quickly life can change. How a split second of savagery can destroy so much. I also realize how powerless I really am. I've always thought of myself as a failure but I always thought I have the power to change things, that I have some control over myself. I was wrong. I felt it coming but I couldn't stop it. I know what I was doing was wrong but I couldn't stop.
It was horrible. I've humiliated myself and it seems even that was not enough. My better side managed to suppress all that frustration and misery and self-destructive rage but I can still feel it inside. The next one might come at any time. I can break down at any time and when that time comes nothing can stop me from hurting and destroying even the things I value and the people I love.
It's coming, I can feel it. I hope when that time comes I would have the strength to fight. But scared of that monster. Utterly, terribly, hopelessly scared.
It was after school when not many people were around and it was only for a couple of minutes, but for a time I was a complete monster. I lost all sense of direction, all sense of morality. I attack anything that is nearby. I let out a scream, a roar. Thank God for gun control.
I realized how quickly life can change. How a split second of savagery can destroy so much. I also realize how powerless I really am. I've always thought of myself as a failure but I always thought I have the power to change things, that I have some control over myself. I was wrong. I felt it coming but I couldn't stop it. I know what I was doing was wrong but I couldn't stop.
It was horrible. I've humiliated myself and it seems even that was not enough. My better side managed to suppress all that frustration and misery and self-destructive rage but I can still feel it inside. The next one might come at any time. I can break down at any time and when that time comes nothing can stop me from hurting and destroying even the things I value and the people I love.
It's coming, I can feel it. I hope when that time comes I would have the strength to fight. But scared of that monster. Utterly, terribly, hopelessly scared.
Virote_Considon
The Great Dictator
I didn't get much sleep last night because some noisy bastard was trying to get in to my flat, convinced that it was his one.
azzaman333
meh
Get some help!
Kozmos
Jew Detective
So you had your first psychotic break? Congratulations, you are a (crazy) man now. Welcome to the club. You are not powerless. You can learn to live with it or adapt it or suppress it.
Sometimes if you feel like reality is breaking down and the world is jumping on your shoulders, it's best to isolate yourself. I usually tell my best friend and gf I need my time alone and that I'll get back to them in a week. Then I shut off my cell and other communication devices and just do all that relaxing crap like walks in the woods, meditations, running, firing guns and so on.
Ultimately, if you feel you really cant handle it on your own, go get professional help. Just pick a good doctor and not one of those prescriptionists.
Ulyaoth
Emperor
Kangaroo person, are you the hulk?
And hey, if we're on the subject of crazy, I thought myself into a depression again today. Stupid brain. Through math class I got distracted off on a tangent(lol) thinking about various things and got myself convinced once again that existence is an entirely pointless things, morality is a lie, people suck, and I should just do what I feel like without regard for other people.
And hey, if we're on the subject of crazy, I thought myself into a depression again today. Stupid brain. Through math class I got distracted off on a tangent(lol) thinking about various things and got myself convinced once again that existence is an entirely pointless things, morality is a lie, people suck, and I should just do what I feel like without regard for other people.
Synobun
Deity
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This.
Ask for some time alone from the people you love, they may not understand but it's better that way.
_random_
Jewel Runner
I can't find a decent online recording of Rewind by Deas Vail.
Kozmos
Jew Detective
I'm not sure whether or not to be happy that I'm not quite as crazy as you guys. Not yet, at least.
Be glad you are not, while the manic times are great, the crash and burns are devastating. And I have suffered plenty social life casualties because of my fits of madness.
Another example...it is 2 AM in the morning and I have this overwhelming need to exercise and run. I am going to do that now and then study robotics for a test I most likely will not write. Why? I dont know why...the feeling in my back, in the spine tells me it's a good idea. Even though I will be sleep deprived and even more unsaner as a result.
Also to make it legal, a rant. My gf wants me to shave because the beard pokes her...well fine...I shall oblige her. But No Shave November is soon and I shall have my revenge!
Sashie VII
Balance of Power
Can't send emails from Outlook. And IT is taking forever to come fix it.
Japanrocks12
tired of being a man
fuuuu she's stopped seeing him but doesn't want to date anyone right now
Synobun
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Sleep deprivation sucks.
It sucks even more when you are no longer capable of in-depth thought. I don't even remember what I ate yesterday. Hell, that conversation I had with my girlfriend earlier today? I don't remember what was said.
No wonder my math grade is a 67.9% so far.
It sucks even more when you are no longer capable of in-depth thought. I don't even remember what I ate yesterday. Hell, that conversation I had with my girlfriend earlier today? I don't remember what was said.
No wonder my math grade is a 67.9% so far.
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