Random Rants XVII: Rage Against the Machine

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I keep thinking that my life, especially my future, is not worth living, and that suicide is necessary. :(

But I would miss you too...

Might I ask what of your future is worrying you?
 
I got a C on a test. :(

Oh my. I got a 1.25/10 on my last essay in lit.

Relax, unless its a final test thats worth 75% of your grade ( yes im looking at you physics class im in), it doesnt really matter in the grand picture.
 
So I was at my friend's birthday party. I felt terrible in the morning but I got better by the afternoon so I thought it was alright t fro them to go to the party. Suddenly in the middle of the party my mood shifts and I suddenly stop talking. My mind became clouded with all these negative thoughts i can't even say a complete sentence let alone join in any conversation. So I felt left out and that makes my state of mind even worse. I cease to notice and enjoy the party and anything that happened, being lost in a freak emotional storm of my own making.

I think everyone at the party noticed the mood change and I spoiled it for them too, more likely though they don't really care. I managed to stop myself from doing anything stupid like punching people (though I did yell some gibberish in one of my friend's face for to let trying to make myself feel better bugt it didn't work and it just annoys him.).

I'm still not thinking clearly and I still feel kinda numb. It the tkind of behavoir that's made me an outcast for all these years. i tried to get rid of this state of mind but i just can't.
 
I keep thinking that my life, especially my future, is not worth living, and that suicide is necessary. :(

When im'm in this depressed mode i feel the same way. firstly YOu need someone to talk to, somewhere wher eyou can let it all out. It might not makie it go away but in my case it does help a little.
 
But I would miss you too...

Might I ask what of your future is worrying you?
This may (or may not) sound silly (or ridiculous), but it's not being able to have a whole lot of free time on my hands to be on the computer or watch tv 24/7 anymore.
When im'm in this depressed mode i feel the same way. firstly YOu need someone to talk to, somewhere wher eyou can let it all out. It might not makie it go away but in my case it does help a little.
I talked to my mother and she helped out a bit, so (rave) I feel a little better now.
 
Honestly I just don't get how anyone can be optimistic for the future with what complete idiocy is sure to always be leading us and selling it's people down the river to ensure their continuing control. I'd be suicidal if it wasn't for that it's everyone else's fault.
 
This may (or may not) sound silly (or ridiculous), but it's not being able to have a whole lot of free time on my hands to be on the computer or watch tv 24/7 anymore.

No, it makes sense. Less freedom to choose and less time to do what you want to do is most certainly not something to be happy about, after all. I guess part of it is making the most of what you do have.

I talked to my mother and she helped out a bit, so (rave) I feel a little better now.

Glad to hear it.



EDIT @Ulyaoth:

Spoiler :
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Stopped a fight before it started. Didn't want to be in that situation.
 
I've got a marathon to run tomorrow morning and it's 2 AM and I'm slightly intoxicated. I'm gonna be a zombie.
 
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