Random Rants XVII: Rage Against the Machine

[Rashiminos]

When's the last time you thought about taking a vacation to Greece?

I thought so.

 

[Karalysia]

OMG! I saw a furry for the first time in real life. He was wearing a tail and ears. I couldn't believe my eyes. By the time I reached for the phone to take a picture he was gone. It was shocking and disgusting all at the same time.

 

[MagisterCultuum]

I still haven't really started the virtual lab/lab report that is due at 5pm tomorrow.

 

[Cheezy the Wiz]

My Stainless Steel 6.1 is hopelessly effed up.

 

[Shylock]

fuuuu she's stopped seeing him but doesn't want to date anyone right now

Correction: Doesn't want to date you. If you win the lottery or become wealthy that should change.

 

[Tee Kay]

I've seen a psychologist today. I ended up confessing all my thoughts and every mistakes and every failures and suicide attempts I've done. After the session I didn't feel relieved or depressed; I just felt numb.

Then as I was waiting for the bus home I suddenly felt weak. I remembered everything I said and I felt the weight of everything I've done to other people. The world would indeed be better off without me. I've been such a selfish bastard no one will truly miss me if I die. I start imagining scenarios where I kill myself.

Now I've regained control over myself a little, but the thoughts are still there. I'm trying to suppress it. I want it to stop. I want all this to end. I want all this negativity out of my life, this monster that has been ruining everything since I can remember. If I die, then at least I take it with me.

 

[Synobun]

I've seen a psychologist today. I ended up confessing all my thoughts and every mistakes and every failures and suicide attempts I've done. After the session I didn't feel relieved or depressed; I just felt numb.

Then as I was waiting for the bus home I suddenly felt weak. I remembered everything I said and I felt the weight of everything I've done to other people. The world would indeed be better off without me. I've been such a selfish bastard no one will truly miss me if I die. I start imagining scenarios where I kill myself.

Now I've regained control over myself a little, but the thoughts are still there. I'm trying to suppress it. I want it to stop. I want all this to end. I want all this negativity out of my life, this monster that has been ruining everything since I can remember. If I die, then at least I take it with me.

Tails, since you have strong Asian background, were you ever taught meditation? Particularly Zen Meditation? It really helps in relieving some/a lot of the negative emotions.

My rant : My Careers class is stupid. The assignment is to make a Mission Statement, 3-5 sentences long. This mission statement should contain EVERYTHING that is important to me or that I value. Yeah, sorry, can't do that with a max of 5 sentences.

 

[Tee Kay]

Tails, since you have strong Asian background, were you ever taught meditation? Particularly Zen Meditation? It really helps in relieving some/a lot of the negative emotions.

Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. It used to help a lot last year and early in the year when I was feeling down (not quite this intensely though). It doesn't help any more. Problem is all my emotions sometimes mixed into a jumbled mess and I can't clear my mind.

My rant : My Careers class is stupid. The assignment is to make a Mission Statement, 3-5 sentences long. This mission statement should contain EVERYTHING that is important to me or that I value. Yeah, sorry, can't do that with a max of 5 sentences.

I remember being forced to do something similar in year 10 and I couldn't write more than two sentences.

 

[Synobun]

Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. It used to help a lot last year and early in the year when I was feeling down (not quite this intensely though). It doesn't help any more. Problem is all my emotions sometimes mixed into a jumbled mess and I can't clear my mind.

Perhaps a mixture of isolation, nature, and meditation would help clear your mind up? At the moment I'm thinking you're stuck in social life which only makes matters worse in your mind, especially when people start acting drawn back because of your behaviour (I know the experience, not fun to see everyone start to avoid conversations with you).

 

[Tee Kay]

I admit I've acted idiotically to many, many, many people.

 

[flyingchicken]

Obama and Norwegian committees don't mix.

 

[Synobun]

I admit I've acted idiotically to many, many, many people.

While you don't mean to, it happens because of your mental state. So isolation would help in centering yourself. Being thrown into a crowd of people every day, every moment, with that state of mind, bad things are bound to happen.

 

[Kraznaya]

Tailess: Consider institutionalizing yourself for a bit. Don't get me wrong, it sucks, but it helps you in appreciating life on the outside a bit more.

 

[Nylan]

I admit I've acted idiotically to many, many, many people.

But we love you here!

 

[Tee Kay]

While you don't mean to, it happens because of your mental state. So isolation would help in centering yourself. Being thrown into a crowd of people every day, every moment, with that state of mind, bad things are bound to happen.

Yeah. However, I still have to go to school like everyone else, and there there's practically no place where I can really be alone. (though I do finish in a couple of weeks)

Tailess: Consider institutionalizing yourself for a bit. Don't get me wrong, it sucks, but it helps you in appreciating life on the outside a bit more.

I would, but not possible in my current circumstances. Maybe if this continues while I'm in university.

But we love you here!

Thank you.

 

[Yared]

My best friend, who happens to be Bulgarian, told me she hates Sofia for a number of reasons:

Dirtiness, crowdedness, etc.

Oh, and apparently there are too many gypsies.

WTH?????

 

[azzaman333]

Yeah. However, I still have to go to school like everyone else, and there there's practically no place where I can really be alone. (though I do finish in a couple of weeks)



I would, but not possible in my current circumstances. Maybe if this continues while I'm in university.



Thank you.

Talk with a psychiatrist and organise something to help you cope better with the exams. Things are more flexible when you have a professional on your side.

 

[choxorn]

Yeah. However, I still have to go to school like everyone else, and there there's practically no place where I can really be alone. (though I do finish in a couple of weeks)

Well, if you finish in a couple of weeks, then it might be easier to get away from people...

 

[Virote_Considon]

I admit I've acted idiotically to many, many, many people.

You'd be hard pressed to find a man on this world who hasn't.

 

[Catharsis]

According to CFC, the USA has declared war on the Clangers! I will have to hide outside of Bedfordshire and hope they do not find me.