My theme is Purposeful Growth
In 2023 in many ways I was cruising on autopilot. Days kind of blended into each other, I lived in modest comfort but aimlessly. I had aspirations but they compete for my attention so I end up just putting them off. So that's what I'm hoping to change in this year.
I did a bit of Purposeful Growth last year, going back to therapy to work out my various
I S S U E S
and changing the way I communicate with people, firstly I want to keep up that effort and not fall back into self-destructive habits. A big part of this is slowing myself down and keeping my perfectionism in check, something I think I will always struggle with just because of how my brain works. But I have support and I should get better at it over time.
Secondly, starting to build up skills and experience doing little things that lead up to bigger projects I want to accomplish in the future, eg. learn Japanese to prepare for a trip to Japan, read more books on Australian history to prepare for some kind of project teaching people about Australian history, sketches more different poses and backgrounds so I can draw more ambitious stuff, and so on and so on.
Thirdly, and probably the hardest task would be to eliminate clutter in my physical and mental spaces so I can actually do the first two goals. Ironically for me this involves doing more things on impulse, and not overthink about the end result. Overthinking leads to procrastination leads to mindlessly browsing social media feeds. Luckily, I already have a bit of an impulsive personality (see: my eating habits) so it's a matter of cultivating that and letting it out more, and trusting myself that I won't fudge things up if I do.