I believe that personal evidence for faith is still best explained using the rational mind. It seems to me far more likely that if I were to have a religious experience it would be due to hallucination or involuntary drug use rather than the existence of God.
That's of course partially true: If angel appeared to me, it would be very reasonable to assume that I'm hallucinating, but that isn't the end of it:
I think word "rationality" is often misused, in a similar vay that word "sceptic" is: it is often thought to be rational thought
combined with the scientific knowledge. But scientific knowledge can be also prejudice, even more so for those of us who aren't scientists.
There's plenty of "good" sceptics, but also many of those for whom scepticism means only refusal to think that there would be anything science can't explain. Let's take telepathy for an example: science doesn't currently acknowledge it's existence, and thus has no explanation of it, but on the other hand there's nothing in science itself that would contradict telepathy. So if someone claimed to have ability to read other's thoughts (with some inaccuracy perhaps), the bad sceptic would say that he's a quack, whereas the good sceptic would pick up pen and paper and start a test with this person: "What am I thinking right now?"
Similarly rationality doesn't per se say that angel appearing to me should be hallucination. To me
it's the opposite of being rational to deny that your senses might be right. Rational person doesn't throw away all his beliefs when confronted with anomaly, but he neither excludes the possibility that observations might refute some of his beliefs. (Notice also how this relates to science: those "bad sceptics" justify belief in science with observation, but at the same time they are denying individual's own observation when it contradicts science. They think science fights dogmatic thinking, but for them science
is the dogma).
I once met a person, who was so odd, and with whom my interaction was so strange, that I seriously considered the possibility of me being in psychosis (I was fully sober at the time). Later these thoughts vanished when I saw her again, heard that other people had seen her too, and that they thought she was strange too. I have also seen maybe three dreams in which I considered the possibilty that they were dreams, and became 100% assured that they aren't
The real sceptic attitude is towards all things around us. And I admit it's in some manner a neurosis.
If we think religious experiences paricularly, they probably are rarely seeing angles or something like that, but maybe of whole another sort of experience that is hard to describe to others. There may be also many of these experiences so the person might first think they are delusions, but after time change his mind. Bottom line is, I think, that we all have to make our own mind of them, and there's no clear rules to apply.
(This isn't so much addresed to you - you seem to think the same way, it's just general babbling about the subjecct).
Since God works in mysterious ways, is it impossible that my atheism fits into his intentions for me?
My take on religion is that if god exists and is good, he doesn't care what I believe in, and had no beef with me, since I'm generally trying to do the right thing. If he on the other hand exists and makes my belief criterion for eternal torment, he's so arbitrary that he could send me to hell anyway, and even the belief wouldn't gurarantee not going there. Therefore my beliefs are irrelevant.
(This seems to be argument only for the christian God, but I think others are covered also in the fact that I have to come to conclusion of what's right by myself. I can't see how any religion could change that fact).