I am glad that you wondered

Because:
Oh, I do, too! I think of myself as a sovereign entity. With sovereign I mean, no one but myself has any
direct say over what I do.
That may seem entirely contradictory to what I said.
Yet, it isn't. Because I do not make the mistake to confuse my self-perception with "objective"* perception. No
one has a say. Things do. Ultimately. And
absolutely .
Subjectively, I in deed
do think of consciousness as a thing. A thing which is I, which is you, which is whatever third person. Based on this, I will also call out people on what I perceive to be their responsibility - their (
kind of[/I] free) choice.
Objectively, I think of myself as a gear of the universe. As well as of you and any third person.
The core issue is here is the problem of being a part of a system (which constitutes the state of subjectivity). Being a part of the system, you do not directly realize whatever happens outside of the system. All reality I establish by the system and whatever matters to you is part of the system. Yet, for all we know, there IS a system of which our consciousnesses are merely a part of. Neurons firing, genes controlling, hormones conditioning, electrons flowing, atoms swinging. We - and that means our consciousness - is from what we know merely a gear in the cosmic fabric. Yeah, we can perceive ourselves. Yet: How[/I] we do so is not up to us. Not in the slightest.
BUT: How we perceive us and what we are and in what environment we are existing in determines our choice. And NONE of it is up to us to decide. If we you want ACTUAL free will, you have find something beyond that which is merely up to us.
But there is nothing.
To only be able to think and perceive WITHIN a system means the illusion of actual freedom. To be able to conclude the exterior of this system (READ: objectivity) means to be able to conclude the objective illusion which is inherent to this system.
So responsibly doesn't matter? Just an illusion of ignorant gears?
NO!
It DOES matter.
Because our valuations moves WITHIN the system. What we value is defined by the system (read: emotions). And ALL meaning comes from - fundamentally IRRATIONAL - values to begin with. Everything else is (admittedly arguably - be redirected to moral philosophy) irrelevant. What objectively is true does in the end only matter in so far as it is relevant subjectively. Which leads you back to the system.
*objective under the assumption that I can trust my basic sense (i.e. I am not living some bizarre matrix)