I got dumped by her. The night before she left. It was an amicable break up with us committed to staying friends and her inviting me round to say my final farewell to her.
But I can't move on or forget about her. There's too much that reminds me of her - she's got clothes in my room, my bed smells like her, her books are in my room. When I walk in the bathroom, I'm reminded of how she used to brush her teeth. Everytime I go out for a walk I'm reminded of the time we walked there and held hands. Everytime I walk past the park I'm reminded of how we used to take naps under the trees on dry leaves as the beautiful red leaves dropped. Everytime I go to work I get reminded of all the fun times we had behind the counter. I feel so haunted by the specter of her. I literally can't do anything without being reminded of her. Her parents invited me round for dinner last Friday and it reminded me of her (well she did live there) the fireplace, the dog, her parents. I mean . .. .. .. .! We were only together for about 2 months but we used to spend 4-5 days a week together and sometimes all week. But now she's gone.
I tried to make myself move on. I asked a girl out for coffee, but I'm only reminded of her, I can't see a girl and not compare. And the thing is, I don't even feel sad or depressed, just wistful.